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i feel really lost lately, more than usual. i don't understand anything that happens to me or around me. my level of guilt has gone through the roof even though i have done absolutely nothing wrong.
after having the most amazing and relaxing weekend in a long time i proceeded to stay up all night drinking coffee [stupid] and crying my eyes out. for no reason at all. is it the weather? maybe. but how much longer can i blame things i have no control over until i realize that i have to take full responsibility.
aren't we all just reflections of the gift of existence?
i'm feeling unsure of myself in this situation. this life. being connected to so many things and people at the same time. i feel like i'm twenty five different people in one brain.
i am so tired of being anxious and nervous. i'm so tired of feeling lonely. i'm tired of being tired.
after having the most amazing and relaxing weekend in a long time i proceeded to stay up all night drinking coffee [stupid] and crying my eyes out. for no reason at all. is it the weather? maybe. but how much longer can i blame things i have no control over until i realize that i have to take full responsibility.
aren't we all just reflections of the gift of existence?
i'm feeling unsure of myself in this situation. this life. being connected to so many things and people at the same time. i feel like i'm twenty five different people in one brain.
i am so tired of being anxious and nervous. i'm so tired of feeling lonely. i'm tired of being tired.