Hello doorframe
I don't use livejournal. Period.
I can't keep up with entries..
I don't read into anyone elses life.
Pathetic, I know.
I'm a little lost right now, though..
and I'm hoping that writing the thoughts in my head out will help me see them a little bit more clearly.
I was not satisfied with the last job that I had.
When I'm unhappy, I purposely sabotage things.
So.. one day I just quit.
I was making decent money.. 12 an hour, to be exact.
But the financial hole I dug myself in wasn't getting any smaller.
With the car payment, and the financial responsibilities I signed myself up for..
Not to mention the goal I had set in moving to Austin this fall..
I was barely breaking even.
Great time to just quit a job, right?
Well, I never fear.
Maybe it's a flaw that will prove fatal one day.
But I would definitely say that I'm blessed.
Never once have I landed anywhere but on my feet.
I now have a WONDERFUL job working for the railroad.
I have SO much responsibility, (not to mention a laptop, cell phone, and 2-way pager!)
$17 dollars an hour. Plus a $2 dollar raise in six months.
What a lucky gal.
But.....
I'm in love.
And I know that seems like such a empty term now-a-days..
But I've been around the track a few times, I've been hit from every angle of the dating world.
I'm confident when I say I've found someone that could potentially be "IT" for me...
and when we started planning.. we kept each other in mind the entire time.
So.. now that these plans are being carried out..
is it natural to be afraid?
We just wanted to make each others lives better.
That's why he moved.. that's why I agreed to follow.
It's just.. life doesn't seem so bad, now.
The only bad thing about it all is that he's not here to share life with.
What I really need is a die hard romantic to tell me that it's all worth it.
because...
In all the risks I've taken in life.. I still feel that I'm not much of a risk taker.
I can't keep up with entries..
I don't read into anyone elses life.
Pathetic, I know.
I'm a little lost right now, though..
and I'm hoping that writing the thoughts in my head out will help me see them a little bit more clearly.
I was not satisfied with the last job that I had.
When I'm unhappy, I purposely sabotage things.
So.. one day I just quit.
I was making decent money.. 12 an hour, to be exact.
But the financial hole I dug myself in wasn't getting any smaller.
With the car payment, and the financial responsibilities I signed myself up for..
Not to mention the goal I had set in moving to Austin this fall..
I was barely breaking even.
Great time to just quit a job, right?
Well, I never fear.
Maybe it's a flaw that will prove fatal one day.
But I would definitely say that I'm blessed.
Never once have I landed anywhere but on my feet.
I now have a WONDERFUL job working for the railroad.
I have SO much responsibility, (not to mention a laptop, cell phone, and 2-way pager!)
$17 dollars an hour. Plus a $2 dollar raise in six months.
What a lucky gal.
But.....
I'm in love.
And I know that seems like such a empty term now-a-days..
But I've been around the track a few times, I've been hit from every angle of the dating world.
I'm confident when I say I've found someone that could potentially be "IT" for me...
and when we started planning.. we kept each other in mind the entire time.
So.. now that these plans are being carried out..
is it natural to be afraid?
We just wanted to make each others lives better.
That's why he moved.. that's why I agreed to follow.
It's just.. life doesn't seem so bad, now.
The only bad thing about it all is that he's not here to share life with.
What I really need is a die hard romantic to tell me that it's all worth it.
because...
In all the risks I've taken in life.. I still feel that I'm not much of a risk taker.