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it was only the beginning of october but it was cold outside and the only thing i could think of to feel some movement was jump naked into the pool on the top of the radisson hotel downtown with two friends. and i did feel really alive that night. afterwards we sat with our legs dangling over the edge of the building and just watched the city lights fly passed us until a security guard came and we fled down the staircase.
same season, five months later and the same stillness keeps returning. it terrifies me sometimes, the way that i wake up and feel like all of my internal organs are in hibernation. it made me sick to my stomach the other night so i went outside and smashed a beer bottle under a street light just to watch all the thousands of pieces of glass change from green to yellow to red but it wasn’t as moving as i hoped it to be.
i know its still winter, but its not that cold.
same season, five months later and the same stillness keeps returning. it terrifies me sometimes, the way that i wake up and feel like all of my internal organs are in hibernation. it made me sick to my stomach the other night so i went outside and smashed a beer bottle under a street light just to watch all the thousands of pieces of glass change from green to yellow to red but it wasn’t as moving as i hoped it to be.
i know its still winter, but its not that cold.