Somethings I learned tonight...
I learned a lot about myself tonight. I learned about love, how I feel about love, and what love is really liie. I'm sor fucked up, I honestly don't care who reads this, cause no one does. Maybe I just learned one thing. I learned that I am a jealous, selfish person and I don't think I'll ever be able to change that. I don't think any of you realize what it's like ot finally understand that. I will be selfish, and ignorant for the rest of my life. Tonight was the heardest night I've had is such a long time, and I really have no one to talk to, exexpt some stupid fuckin computer screen. I really think the only thing that made me throught tonight was a borderline overodse on Valium. What has my life come to? Extreme ups that are barely worth what I feel now. I wish I could just sleep. That's what I really want. This will be two days now. Extreme ups that are barely worth what I feel now.