fuck everything!!
Sunday December 5, 2004
life really sucks right now, Dave wants to call but I don’t want to be ignored. Mom and Jorma want to take me out but I’m not in the mood to go shopping, I’m sick of everyone trying to make me feel better. I wish that they’d leave me alone for awhile.
I feel like Dave doesn’t care about me, cause when we talk he’s always listening to music or talking to other people but me. I’m getting sick of him.
Everyone’s on my ass, mom tries to get me to eat. I hate being like this, I want to be healthy again. I’ve been sick for a month, it seems like I’m not getting better. I wish that I’d die tomorrow cause I can’t deal with this shit anymore.
I don’t feel human anymore, cause someone’s always on my ass. Even though Dawn is nice I can’t take it.
It’s so sad, no one notices that I’m sad. Not even Dave, he’s so different now. I hate that, ever since I came home from the hospital he’s changed.
Yesterday, I printed out an easter seals paper. Jorma said "now your mom and I can plan to go to Finland" I said, I don't want you guys to leave me here with Suvi cause she messes everything up every summer. Last summer she went to a party and I called 911 cause I felt like I was going to faint, then Suvi wrote in her away message "for the records, I hate my sister".
life really sucks right now, Dave wants to call but I don’t want to be ignored. Mom and Jorma want to take me out but I’m not in the mood to go shopping, I’m sick of everyone trying to make me feel better. I wish that they’d leave me alone for awhile.
I feel like Dave doesn’t care about me, cause when we talk he’s always listening to music or talking to other people but me. I’m getting sick of him.
Everyone’s on my ass, mom tries to get me to eat. I hate being like this, I want to be healthy again. I’ve been sick for a month, it seems like I’m not getting better. I wish that I’d die tomorrow cause I can’t deal with this shit anymore.
I don’t feel human anymore, cause someone’s always on my ass. Even though Dawn is nice I can’t take it.
It’s so sad, no one notices that I’m sad. Not even Dave, he’s so different now. I hate that, ever since I came home from the hospital he’s changed.
Yesterday, I printed out an easter seals paper. Jorma said "now your mom and I can plan to go to Finland" I said, I don't want you guys to leave me here with Suvi cause she messes everything up every summer. Last summer she went to a party and I called 911 cause I felt like I was going to faint, then Suvi wrote in her away message "for the records, I hate my sister".