Mama said there'd be weeks like this...
So this past week has been a copmlete roller coaster ride. Its rush weekend on the hilltop and every girl is ready to pull her hair out, especially this one. I've bbeen trying to stay positive but with all thats been goin gon around me its really hard. All I want to do is lay in my bed, and sometimes, cry.
I started out the semester really good. I was doing my homework, staying on top of things, and I was really happy. Things were going great. Then, rush started. The practices every night, the parties all day long, and the lack of sleep. Its made me sick. I feel horrible. Things with Gabe even got a little shaky. I never meant for any of this to happen, but I feel that I didn't prepare myself ahead of time. There is so much that I need to do, but I just don't have the energy for it right now.
People at home think I'm not eatting, especially my brother. If he said it once today, he said it 5 times. I saw my grandparents this morning. I miss them so much. I hardly ever get to see my Dad's parents, mainly bc they live in Reform, AL and bc my grandfather isn't dong so well and its really hard for him to get out of the house.
My nephew got baptized this morning. He's growing up so fast, it was like just yesterday we were bringing him home from the hospital and he was falling asleep in my arms in the rocking chair. Now, it takes all my strength just to hold him off of me when I make him mad. He's amazing though, and I love him so much.
Gabe and I finally talked about what was bothering him today. I knew something was wrong, and I hate when it when people don't talk to me about things. He finally told me, and I understand where he's coming from, but we both know that I can't change things right now, even though I'd like to. I haven't gotten to spend very much time with him since last weeks it seems. He came over a few times last week, but only for a few minutes. It feels like we're not as close, but thats because we haven't been together in a while. I miss him so much, and I just say him today. I'm ready for things to slow back down so I can spend more time with him. He bought me a shirt at the Alabama football game the other night. I've been wearing it all day. It makes me think of him and I feel a lil bit better knowing that I'm wearing something he got me. I just want to be with him, I feel safe when he's here.
Life needs to slow down again. Things were great when there wasn't a stress level, I was ahead of schedule in school work, and I was with Gabe whenever I wanted to be. I miss the old days too. When Anna and I got to hang out a lot more, and we valued the time we were together more. Now, since we are with each other all the time, its like we aren't as close. I miss the good ole days.
Anyways, this has been a rather long entry and I'm tired. I'm gonna go to bed now. Goodnight!
KCoop
I started out the semester really good. I was doing my homework, staying on top of things, and I was really happy. Things were going great. Then, rush started. The practices every night, the parties all day long, and the lack of sleep. Its made me sick. I feel horrible. Things with Gabe even got a little shaky. I never meant for any of this to happen, but I feel that I didn't prepare myself ahead of time. There is so much that I need to do, but I just don't have the energy for it right now.
People at home think I'm not eatting, especially my brother. If he said it once today, he said it 5 times. I saw my grandparents this morning. I miss them so much. I hardly ever get to see my Dad's parents, mainly bc they live in Reform, AL and bc my grandfather isn't dong so well and its really hard for him to get out of the house.
My nephew got baptized this morning. He's growing up so fast, it was like just yesterday we were bringing him home from the hospital and he was falling asleep in my arms in the rocking chair. Now, it takes all my strength just to hold him off of me when I make him mad. He's amazing though, and I love him so much.
Gabe and I finally talked about what was bothering him today. I knew something was wrong, and I hate when it when people don't talk to me about things. He finally told me, and I understand where he's coming from, but we both know that I can't change things right now, even though I'd like to. I haven't gotten to spend very much time with him since last weeks it seems. He came over a few times last week, but only for a few minutes. It feels like we're not as close, but thats because we haven't been together in a while. I miss him so much, and I just say him today. I'm ready for things to slow back down so I can spend more time with him. He bought me a shirt at the Alabama football game the other night. I've been wearing it all day. It makes me think of him and I feel a lil bit better knowing that I'm wearing something he got me. I just want to be with him, I feel safe when he's here.
Life needs to slow down again. Things were great when there wasn't a stress level, I was ahead of schedule in school work, and I was with Gabe whenever I wanted to be. I miss the old days too. When Anna and I got to hang out a lot more, and we valued the time we were together more. Now, since we are with each other all the time, its like we aren't as close. I miss the good ole days.
Anyways, this has been a rather long entry and I'm tired. I'm gonna go to bed now. Goodnight!
KCoop