why am i so sad
well i think i have given up on james. for now. for a long time. this have gone real great since just recently. i dont know what happend. but i am pretty sure hes interested in this girl from a different school hes taking to prom. and it just hit me that he is graduating really soon. then he wont be around anymore, and we prolly wont even be as good of friends. so why keep liking him and get my heart broken even more? i thought maybe i would be happier not liking him. but i have been absolutely miserable. i dont feel like talking much and i dont sleep very well at night so i am really tired at school now. all my teachers are worried about me because i have barely talked at all in thier classes. one every period asked me if i was ok today. their like u havnt been talkin are u ok? its crazy. i dont even know what i can do to make myself happy. this sadness cant go on much longer tho. its already driving me and my friends crazy. i gotta do something. maybe i should hunt for another guy more in my league u know?
on a lighter note, i won the 400 last night!! yay. out of 12 people. it was awesome. still been talking to jordan and kevin a lot, but they are seniors too. gosh. why do i have to get along with senior guys the best?? gosh. there is this guy brandon in my class, but hes going to prom with this junior girl. not sure if he likes her or not. but maybe i can wait it out and see what happends. who knows. anything could happen.
i need a hug. lol
on a lighter note, i won the 400 last night!! yay. out of 12 people. it was awesome. still been talking to jordan and kevin a lot, but they are seniors too. gosh. why do i have to get along with senior guys the best?? gosh. there is this guy brandon in my class, but hes going to prom with this junior girl. not sure if he likes her or not. but maybe i can wait it out and see what happends. who knows. anything could happen.
i need a hug. lol