May 14, 2005 10:19
YESTERDAY A CHAPTER CLOSED TO OPEN A NEW ONE.ONE WITHOUT THE PERSON I CAME TO LOVEAND CARE ABOUT. I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO REACT BUT I COULDN'T STOP I KNEW IT WAS TIME TO LET GO FOR A WHILE AND SEE WHERE TIME TAKES US. WE JUST NEEDED A BREAK TO LET THINGS COOL DOWN.
I KNOW I SHOULD HAVE SAID MORE TO THIS PERSON AND FIND OUT WHAT WAS BETWEEN US BECAUSE IT COULD HAVE A "RELATIONSHIP".IT IS WEIRD BECAUSE I DIDN'T LET MYSELF FEEL ANYTHING BECAUSE I WAS SCARED OF GETTING TOO CLOSE.WE DID GET CLOSE.
NOW I JUST HAVE TO LIVE EVERYDAY THE BEST I CAN AND TAKE EVERYTHING WITH A GRAIN OF SALT. HE IS MY PAST AND WAS MY PRESENT BUT NOW THERE IS SOME PERSON WHO WILL BE FUTURE.
IT IS TIME WE NEED. I COULDN'T LET GO BUT I KNEW I HAD TO . WE BOTH DID.
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE HIM BUT NOW ITS TIME TO TEST WHAT WE HAD WITH THE TEST OF TIME.