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Well the Anniversary is coming up, and those who know me know what that means...one week today and it'll be 2 years..plus Nov. 19 is (was) my Mom's birthday..so naturally I'm nat a big fan of November, and I tend to stay away from people...and it's getting real cold here..real lonely too..' no money-no fun..we wanna Holiday in the Sun".. This is more than a down day or two..this is a true 'Blue" period like I'm some sorta artist or something..I just have NO desire to stick around when it's like this...of course I will until 'natural causes' have thier way with me...and relieve me of this misery, because unless someone comes around like Magic!!, and makes me better, I won't do it myself..All of me best moments used, I'm afraid :(...I was a good husband and a great dad, but those days are so far gone, when I used to look forward to going home..rug pulled out...fuck, I hate her for that..sure it's self-seving and selfish..but too bad..we coulda fixed it..if she just fuckin said something...anything...for someone who led a pretty charmed life for his first 28 years..I would never wish anyone the hell in my head I've had for the past 3....ugh...I dunno what's goin' on with my 2 online friends either..I tunnell way inside at this time of year....should be over by January tho...hi everyone hope ya'll doin better than me..not too hard to top that, though..:) later, Sk8er's...