After
I feel like shit. There's no way around that. we did the internment today (put her in the crypt) and that went ok. So now I just have to deal. I've had a list of stuff to do all day and I just can't get anything done. I don't really feel like being around people right now, but I think i'm gonna spend the night at the phoenician with Ben if I ever get my room clean. I just want to sleep for a long long time. God I miss those short months that I was happy because when I was alone or just doing something my mind would wander and I would think of how lucky I was to have all these great friends and how my life was good. How whenever I start thinking my stomach starts hurting and I have this tangible pain and I just feel sad and depressed. I just want it to stop. I want to have three days to myslef but that won't happen. July 4th is tomorrow and hopefully soon after I can go to San Diego. I really want to spend time with spencer. I feel like shit, gotta go get some stuff done... hopefully. I'll write later and you never know maybe I'll feel better.