what a fucked up....
ok, so i only write in this damn thing when i only have something to say, or to vent about. fuck off. heres the deal. i think it was tuesday night last week that lindsey calls me over to snuggle with her. i thought she was having another panic attack, so i came over right away to help calm her down. so, laying next to her, i start talking to her to help calm her down. turns out its not a panic attack. shes just pissed that the biggest fucking looser that i have ever known in my entire life is whats making her upset. shes pissed because fucktard, or aaron, is totally ignoring her, and she cant stand it. ok, i know that they did stuff way before she and i met. plus on top of that, that lil shit tried getting lindsey to sleep with him. of course, i dont find out about this until way after we break up. when i get fired up about it, shes all like, look, its in the past, and we arent dating anymore, so why get all upset over it? well, linds, let me tell you that any male on the face of the planet, if he seriously liked the woman, and is still good friends with her, he will get fucking fired up over it because he dated the woman, and another guy moving in on his territory is just fucking wrong.
but i am getting a lil of subject. so shes pissed that fucktard isnt talking to her. shes upset, she sheds some tears, and whines and complains about it. so i become of two minds, 1, i want to calm her down, make her happy, cuz i hate to see her upset. 2, i want to put my fist through the wall and call down a mighty rage unto the lil shit. so i end up of doing both. i swear to god that if i ever see the lil fucker outside of where he works, i WILL... well, i dont know what i will do. maybe just put a hell of alot of fear in the lil shit.
but, why the hell does she pine over him? from everything ive put together, he only talkes to her when he, A, wants some. B complains about women to her. C, still wants some. and whenever lindsey tries to call him, or message him online, he ignores her when he doesnt want nething to do with her. now, any smart person would have cut ties with the lil shit a long time ago, myself included, but her, she bitches to high heaven that he ignores her, says shes going to stop talking to him, and wont do talk to him for a couple weeks, and then bam, he messages her just once, and then all she sees is stars "oh hes talking to me again. im gonna loose my mind over a guy who treats me like shit, disrespects me, and totally ignores me, but im not gonna care cuz hes really cute, and for some reason, because i cant have him, hes that much more attractive..."
blah fucking blah
so what the hell am i supposed to do about that? she tells me to my face, looking me in the eye, saying that she doesnt want him, and yet all her actions SCREAM otherwise. ive seen women pine after men before, and it just turns my gut that lindsey will LOWER her standards, for this looser. i mean hell, he still lives at home with his dad, doesnt have a car, and works at pick n save.
ok, for those of you who know me, youll say "your mom lives right above you. you work part time at OCS."
well, for one, i pay rent on my own place, i work part time cuz i am in SCHOOL FULL TIME!! and i have my own car, that is still running beautifully.(knock on wood). hell, im even joining the army to be able to advance my goals for life.
with my humble opinion, i am a hell of alot better than this lil shit.
then why the fuck is she pining after him?
ITS SHIT LIKE THIS THAT HELPS ME KEEP MY FOCUS.
man lines...i will have them.
but i am getting a lil of subject. so shes pissed that fucktard isnt talking to her. shes upset, she sheds some tears, and whines and complains about it. so i become of two minds, 1, i want to calm her down, make her happy, cuz i hate to see her upset. 2, i want to put my fist through the wall and call down a mighty rage unto the lil shit. so i end up of doing both. i swear to god that if i ever see the lil fucker outside of where he works, i WILL... well, i dont know what i will do. maybe just put a hell of alot of fear in the lil shit.
but, why the hell does she pine over him? from everything ive put together, he only talkes to her when he, A, wants some. B complains about women to her. C, still wants some. and whenever lindsey tries to call him, or message him online, he ignores her when he doesnt want nething to do with her. now, any smart person would have cut ties with the lil shit a long time ago, myself included, but her, she bitches to high heaven that he ignores her, says shes going to stop talking to him, and wont do talk to him for a couple weeks, and then bam, he messages her just once, and then all she sees is stars "oh hes talking to me again. im gonna loose my mind over a guy who treats me like shit, disrespects me, and totally ignores me, but im not gonna care cuz hes really cute, and for some reason, because i cant have him, hes that much more attractive..."
blah fucking blah
so what the hell am i supposed to do about that? she tells me to my face, looking me in the eye, saying that she doesnt want him, and yet all her actions SCREAM otherwise. ive seen women pine after men before, and it just turns my gut that lindsey will LOWER her standards, for this looser. i mean hell, he still lives at home with his dad, doesnt have a car, and works at pick n save.
ok, for those of you who know me, youll say "your mom lives right above you. you work part time at OCS."
well, for one, i pay rent on my own place, i work part time cuz i am in SCHOOL FULL TIME!! and i have my own car, that is still running beautifully.(knock on wood). hell, im even joining the army to be able to advance my goals for life.
with my humble opinion, i am a hell of alot better than this lil shit.
then why the fuck is she pining after him?
ITS SHIT LIKE THIS THAT HELPS ME KEEP MY FOCUS.
man lines...i will have them.