i hate this....
alright.
last month i got together with lindsey, and we made out, and we both agreed that there was no butterflies when we kissed. so i thought i was over her, and i was starting to see her as a friend. she messes around with dave, and i dont care. she did stuff with the fucking moron aaron, i got a lil irritated cuz shes STILL talking to him. but, as to the stuff,...eh. didnt get jealous or anything. she goes to milwaukee this past friday night, sees a bunch of bands and then hangs out with them after the show. i totally knew that something was gonna happen with some punk from the band and her, totally expected it. saw it coming. planned for it. and i was totally like "hey, no problem"
then the call came on saturday night.
shes made out with this punk, whom both totally werent into. i knew this was going to happen. and yet i got jealous. i became the ex boyfriend again. i actually felt feelings for her again. i totally wanted to go over to her place on saturday night and lay claim to her again. make her mine, so to speak. but its over between us. (although, she has said "we are over...for now")
i need to get away from this place. i need to be distant from her. i need for her to live her life as she wants without having a friend/ex-boyfriend calling her on her deeds, and making her irritated.
i need to be able to live my life to the fullest without wanting lindsey back in my life...
...for now
last month i got together with lindsey, and we made out, and we both agreed that there was no butterflies when we kissed. so i thought i was over her, and i was starting to see her as a friend. she messes around with dave, and i dont care. she did stuff with the fucking moron aaron, i got a lil irritated cuz shes STILL talking to him. but, as to the stuff,...eh. didnt get jealous or anything. she goes to milwaukee this past friday night, sees a bunch of bands and then hangs out with them after the show. i totally knew that something was gonna happen with some punk from the band and her, totally expected it. saw it coming. planned for it. and i was totally like "hey, no problem"
then the call came on saturday night.
shes made out with this punk, whom both totally werent into. i knew this was going to happen. and yet i got jealous. i became the ex boyfriend again. i actually felt feelings for her again. i totally wanted to go over to her place on saturday night and lay claim to her again. make her mine, so to speak. but its over between us. (although, she has said "we are over...for now")
i need to get away from this place. i need to be distant from her. i need for her to live her life as she wants without having a friend/ex-boyfriend calling her on her deeds, and making her irritated.
i need to be able to live my life to the fullest without wanting lindsey back in my life...
...for now