Update
So, a few things.
First, my plans for getting into grad school fell completely through. Right now, I'm just taking some classes to fill in some gaps in my resume, and to hold off the student loan payments. I was going to take grad classes under the undeclared grad student route, but I read in the paper that it's actually a waste of time. Turns out undeclared's don't get any faculty time, and have access to less loans. So I kind of lucked out on that one.
Second, it turns out that in one of my classes this semester is Megan. Not the freaky amazon chick Megan, but the Megan who only needed help in class. *sigh* Ironically, just after I deleted her phone number from my phone I ran into her. Now I gotta act like I sorta like her, but really I could care less. I ran into her at Wal-mart and she didn't even act like I existed. So, this'll be interesting. Hell, she's not even as attractive as Rachel was.
Third, it was made real clear to me that the SIU branch of the AMA doesn't want me on the board. That sucks, but even worse is the fact that I brought in a 1/3 of their total donations for their stupid ass event. On top of that, I didn't even get any sort of acknowledgment or thanks. And now they want the roller derby to have a team at the event, but it's another $75 a pop for them to show and participate. So basically for the team to show up, they want another thousand bucks and I don't feel like being the one who has to ask them. Tonight the one chick in charge wanted me to give over my contact with them, and I immediately cringed. I've literally watched her do that twice before, and then she started backpeddling and was like "oh, you can be there too." I don't think anyone would swallow that bullshit. I don't really feel like handing over the contact name either, and I didn't give them enough to work with to find it. Once I give over the contact, they've no reason to deal with me nor will I get any credit. Odds are I'll just tell them I'm going to do it, and then never do. They've fucked around with me for 2 months (always pushing back discussions about ideas for the AMA, stuff like guest speakers and stuff), so payback is a bitch. As a side note, this event is going to fail hard. According to the website, which is like the relay for life site but crappier, only 5 people have raised enough to participate. They said 50 earlier today :P
What really hurts is that I wanted that board position. The AMA keeps screwing me out board spots, and I need those for the resume. That, and validation that I'm actually leadership material. I know they're BS posts, but god damn it I want that title. I want people to know that I can be put in charge, and not fuck things up. I gotta leave the AMA, I can't be wasting my time with this. There's no socialization, there's no activities, it's just wasting time. I'm still really bummed out about the whole thing, and it's probably going to take a while before I'm over it.
First, my plans for getting into grad school fell completely through. Right now, I'm just taking some classes to fill in some gaps in my resume, and to hold off the student loan payments. I was going to take grad classes under the undeclared grad student route, but I read in the paper that it's actually a waste of time. Turns out undeclared's don't get any faculty time, and have access to less loans. So I kind of lucked out on that one.
Second, it turns out that in one of my classes this semester is Megan. Not the freaky amazon chick Megan, but the Megan who only needed help in class. *sigh* Ironically, just after I deleted her phone number from my phone I ran into her. Now I gotta act like I sorta like her, but really I could care less. I ran into her at Wal-mart and she didn't even act like I existed. So, this'll be interesting. Hell, she's not even as attractive as Rachel was.
Third, it was made real clear to me that the SIU branch of the AMA doesn't want me on the board. That sucks, but even worse is the fact that I brought in a 1/3 of their total donations for their stupid ass event. On top of that, I didn't even get any sort of acknowledgment or thanks. And now they want the roller derby to have a team at the event, but it's another $75 a pop for them to show and participate. So basically for the team to show up, they want another thousand bucks and I don't feel like being the one who has to ask them. Tonight the one chick in charge wanted me to give over my contact with them, and I immediately cringed. I've literally watched her do that twice before, and then she started backpeddling and was like "oh, you can be there too." I don't think anyone would swallow that bullshit. I don't really feel like handing over the contact name either, and I didn't give them enough to work with to find it. Once I give over the contact, they've no reason to deal with me nor will I get any credit. Odds are I'll just tell them I'm going to do it, and then never do. They've fucked around with me for 2 months (always pushing back discussions about ideas for the AMA, stuff like guest speakers and stuff), so payback is a bitch. As a side note, this event is going to fail hard. According to the website, which is like the relay for life site but crappier, only 5 people have raised enough to participate. They said 50 earlier today :P
What really hurts is that I wanted that board position. The AMA keeps screwing me out board spots, and I need those for the resume. That, and validation that I'm actually leadership material. I know they're BS posts, but god damn it I want that title. I want people to know that I can be put in charge, and not fuck things up. I gotta leave the AMA, I can't be wasting my time with this. There's no socialization, there's no activities, it's just wasting time. I'm still really bummed out about the whole thing, and it's probably going to take a while before I'm over it.