(no subject)
only god can satify the heart...
i saw that on a church sign today....
i love joe with everything i cant believe that this is happening..
hes in the hospital and i stayed with him all last night from four in the morning until one this afternoon sleeping by his side...
he got drunk
and i have never seen another side to him like this before.
he was crazy talking like he was ghetto and it was def not even an act like most people
he was way out of hand and no one was at his house to help me....his dad and his brother and sister were up north
and his mom was in canada thinking that everything was okay....
he jumped on top of my car when i was leaving
he fell
but he had a bloody head and elbow but that didnt stop him
he literally went crazy
i love him
but
he needs help
his mom came home and called the hospital to come get him.
he blew a .0291 er something
he was triple the legal limit...
and he was calling the cops fat pigs and dawgs
he was not himself
in the cop car he stopped
and looked at me
and said i love you...will u wait for me?
and i said of course i will...and i gave him a kiss...
they took him to the hospital
and gave him something in his IV to knock him out
and i came in with his mom and his moms friend..
and waited....
went to joes and got a sweatshirt and i changed my clothes and i went back up to the hospital and layed with him the whole night
layed my head next to his with a pillow....
right before i left today i woke him up
and i said i love you and he said i love you too sooo much you are everything to me....i gave a kiss and i told him to be good...and i will be right by his side...
i went to my mothers grave and i cried my eyes like i have never done it before...i know my real mom loves him because we would go to her grave and talk to her all the time...i had a dream once where she told me she approved of joe and she liked him and that he was the one...
i woke up from that dream and he was laying next to me at that time holding me and he was sleeping...and i realized he was a beautiful person
now he is going to the other st joesphs hospital....
i dont know how long he will be gone or if i can ever see him...
but i will be here...
waiting
now i am talkin to his mom... and she is soo heartbroken...
all because of alcohol....
i love you joe with everything with my body and soul
ive never seen him like this
and i know i never willl
i love you all and i want u to realize that you should always keep your close friends nearby and to show love not ever hate...
and make good choices...
only god can satify the heart