Trying to cheer myself up at the moment...
Here's why:
-I hurt my foot about 2 weeks ago and had to stay off it (it was infected... wee) and couldn't workout.
-My blood pressure dropped significantly (80/60, normal is 120/80), resulting in me nearly passing out 20-30 times a day. I finally saw a doc yesterday and apparently my BP dropped hardcore because of a salt deficiency and from going from extreme workouts to nothing so quickly. So now I'm all hopped up on salt, which makes me feel bloated, but it sort of is working? I think? I feel a little less out of it for the first time in a week.
-Haven't been able to workout (or even take walks!) for about 2 weeks, which is resulting in me having really horrible anxiety attacks (the workouts keep them at bay normally), which also could be my body trying to get my BP up... not sure. Makes me feel like I'm having a heart attack all the time though...
-Dianne left to move back to Florida today. Just as we got really close again... I'm really fucking super bummed out. First Katy moved, then Renee and Alicia, and now Dianne? Every person I'm REALLY close with here in LA has now left... I'm feeling really depressed about it all. I didn't think her leaving LA would affect me so much... I was wrong.
-My birthday is Sunday. I'd like to say I don't care about celebrating it like I always do, but I do for once (you only turn 25 once, right?) and I'm just not up to planning anything because I'm so emotionally low lately. I may just go up north, but I dunno yet. Birthday's are silly bullshit.
I don't like being like this. I want to be healthy again so I can workout and get my endorphins back ASAP. Not a good time for me to be deprived of them...
-I hurt my foot about 2 weeks ago and had to stay off it (it was infected... wee) and couldn't workout.
-My blood pressure dropped significantly (80/60, normal is 120/80), resulting in me nearly passing out 20-30 times a day. I finally saw a doc yesterday and apparently my BP dropped hardcore because of a salt deficiency and from going from extreme workouts to nothing so quickly. So now I'm all hopped up on salt, which makes me feel bloated, but it sort of is working? I think? I feel a little less out of it for the first time in a week.
-Haven't been able to workout (or even take walks!) for about 2 weeks, which is resulting in me having really horrible anxiety attacks (the workouts keep them at bay normally), which also could be my body trying to get my BP up... not sure. Makes me feel like I'm having a heart attack all the time though...
-Dianne left to move back to Florida today. Just as we got really close again... I'm really fucking super bummed out. First Katy moved, then Renee and Alicia, and now Dianne? Every person I'm REALLY close with here in LA has now left... I'm feeling really depressed about it all. I didn't think her leaving LA would affect me so much... I was wrong.
-My birthday is Sunday. I'd like to say I don't care about celebrating it like I always do, but I do for once (you only turn 25 once, right?) and I'm just not up to planning anything because I'm so emotionally low lately. I may just go up north, but I dunno yet. Birthday's are silly bullshit.
I don't like being like this. I want to be healthy again so I can workout and get my endorphins back ASAP. Not a good time for me to be deprived of them...