. . i hold myself back * in the thought of kissing you <3
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okay, so. . .monday nights to tuesDAYS. . .basically, completely, and totally
SUCK* k, here is the low down on my monday night.. on the bus ride home from
school, me n dan wer talking about how drew wont ask me out.. he was telling
me how he thinks that hes playing "hard to get" and hes just being a pussy.
well, see .. i kinda [for the most part] agree with that. so i came home, went
on the computer, and told drew our little theory. he got pissed, and basically
told me that it was gona be this way forever and we wer never gona officially
"go out" . . . . iduno, i know that he likes me, alot. but i feel like im
just his booty call...or something like that. when me n him first started
tlaking, he told me not to get too attatched. . .and, i did. i fell real
hard for this kid.....i can open up to him, more then i have ever been able
to open up to ANYONE ever. i constantly have this feeling deep down about
this whole situation. i always worry about it. i need to stop worrying so
much about it. . . .. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but its something i cant really help.
i wanna say something to him, but im speachless everytime i go to open my
mouth. i dont know where to start. i know that if i DO say something, hes
gona tell me that im over-reacting . i might be over reacting, iduno. . [?]
people tell me all the time that i just need to get rid of him, but i CANT. .
i dont want to. . .i cant like, picture myself without him. iduno, im just. .in
such a perdicament...!!!! ahhh. and iduno, i think i need to just stop worrying,
stop thinking about it, stop caring so much? =[. as much as it hurts, i might
need to just. . . . . . . . .have the not care so much attitude. bells about to
ring, time to go to gym. . hah, ill write more later, after school or something*
oox <3
nothin on my mind, but summertime bitch =]
[ SUMMER 2004. . . .IT AINT READY FOR US ]
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okay, so. . .monday nights to tuesDAYS. . .basically, completely, and totally
SUCK* k, here is the low down on my monday night.. on the bus ride home from
school, me n dan wer talking about how drew wont ask me out.. he was telling
me how he thinks that hes playing "hard to get" and hes just being a pussy.
well, see .. i kinda [for the most part] agree with that. so i came home, went
on the computer, and told drew our little theory. he got pissed, and basically
told me that it was gona be this way forever and we wer never gona officially
"go out" . . . . iduno, i know that he likes me, alot. but i feel like im
just his booty call...or something like that. when me n him first started
tlaking, he told me not to get too attatched. . .and, i did. i fell real
hard for this kid.....i can open up to him, more then i have ever been able
to open up to ANYONE ever. i constantly have this feeling deep down about
this whole situation. i always worry about it. i need to stop worrying so
much about it. . . .. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but its something i cant really help.
i wanna say something to him, but im speachless everytime i go to open my
mouth. i dont know where to start. i know that if i DO say something, hes
gona tell me that im over-reacting . i might be over reacting, iduno. . [?]
people tell me all the time that i just need to get rid of him, but i CANT. .
i dont want to. . .i cant like, picture myself without him. iduno, im just. .in
such a perdicament...!!!! ahhh. and iduno, i think i need to just stop worrying,
stop thinking about it, stop caring so much? =[. as much as it hurts, i might
need to just. . . . . . . . .have the not care so much attitude. bells about to
ring, time to go to gym. . hah, ill write more later, after school or something*
oox <3
nothin on my mind, but summertime bitch =]
[ SUMMER 2004. . . .IT AINT READY FOR US ]
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