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Recently, I have been re-evaluating alot of things. My life in general. My goals. My friends. I have been trying to set everything straight. Reading the Notebook put Alot of things into perspective for me. It made me think of who I really loved, and wasn't infatuated with, and who really loved me. It had brought alot of things into the light for me. And has been very helpful. Thinking back, I think I only really loved person. I mean, there have been other guys who I would say "OMG i love him!" Well, quite a few. But There really was only one. I hope that soon I can get over it. Because till this day I still think about him. I think about how Noah Looked at Allie in the movie, and think to myself. That is how he looked at me, and how we felt about eachother. I guess, thinking about it now, I shouldn't have ended things the way I did. I think it was stupid and immature, and selfish, and I hope he can forgive me for everything I put him through. Both times.
Other that That. I have been reconsidering friendships. "Sucking all the poison out" I guess you could say. There are still those girls who don't like me, and who I am not to fond of back, But I know now, I can say, with a clean concience, I don't hate Anyone. I just hope that this goes on. I also am thinking about all of the great friends that I have now, and think about how lucky I am to have them.
On that note, I can't wait for this weekend! Me and Nicole are going to go out! I dont know what we are going yet, but we are gunna have SO much fun! yayy!! <33