"this is not good-bye, good-byes mean forever, this is just.. see you later."
I'm really sad right now. Tomorrow, Cheryl and Jessica are leaving for East Stroudsburg University.Eventually we would all have to leave and go seperate ways, but somehow it seemed like it wouldn't happen this soon, as if I didn't start packing I would be able to hold onto the summer longer. I guess it all just hit me at once. Sure, we would all talk about going off to college and keeping in touch, shopping together to get dorm stuff.. but i really didn't think this day would actually arrive. I mean its not like im never going to see them again, but after tomorrow, it will be a little different and a step closer to me leaving too. I guess im a little scared to be going so far, 5 hours.. i mean i really only know 1 girl there, besides my room mate and i only met her at orientation. It's scary, but exciting too, i will have to really be on my own and independent, no more mommy and daddy and my friends since elementary school to rely on anymore. I guess im just venting all my worries in this entry.. i mean i wont really know till i get there. I finished this book i was reading today. I pretty much never read anymore, like ever, but it was about 300 pages and i finished it in 3 days. It's called seventeenth summer if anyone wants to read it.. anyways, i thought this kinda related to how i feel right now...
"That night, lying in bed, I could not help wishing that there wasn't so much sadness in growing up. It was all so confused in my mind. There had been the long, long days of being young and not wondering about tomorrow at all and thinking in a strange, forgotten child's world. There were days when my thoughts were as mild as feathers and even an hour seemed like a long time. Then, suddenly it was like turning a sharp corner- you were older and the things that counted when you were young didn't count anymore at all, and looking back you couldn't even see them. Growing up crowds your mind with new thoughts and feelings so that you forget how you used to think and feel."
"That night, lying in bed, I could not help wishing that there wasn't so much sadness in growing up. It was all so confused in my mind. There had been the long, long days of being young and not wondering about tomorrow at all and thinking in a strange, forgotten child's world. There were days when my thoughts were as mild as feathers and even an hour seemed like a long time. Then, suddenly it was like turning a sharp corner- you were older and the things that counted when you were young didn't count anymore at all, and looking back you couldn't even see them. Growing up crowds your mind with new thoughts and feelings so that you forget how you used to think and feel."