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Wow I haven't been on Livejournal in so long. I definately have a lot of my mind. But firsts things first School is going pretty good. I mean I hate going there with a passion...but all of my classes are going pretty good, so I guess I can't complain. I'm working towards a 3.5 for my overall gpa this year. School would be much better if I wasn't in Michigan. Sometimes I regret moving here...but then again I wouldn't have had the same experiences I've had here. Its just such a depressing place to me. So thats whats up with school. I guess i'll continue to bitch and do good in my classes.
As far as friends go I don't really have any to be quite honest. But i'm not upset or anything because that usually happens when you graduate from high school. You definately find out who your real friends are.Its weird to go from being "the social butterfly"...to not really talking to anyone. Me and Elena aren't friends anymore. thats another story. Me and Lindsey are still best friends. But shes still in high school, and there's certain stuff that she can do, that I can't do...just because there's that age difference...ya know? Josh is always helpful. Hes always there to listen and to give me advice and I really appreciate that. He's probably the most consistent friend I have in my life right now...I was talking to Alaura the other day...she was telling me how alone she felt. And it kind of made me feel a little bit better (I know that sounds bad) just because I feel the exact same way and its good to know that i'm not the only one. It just seems like all of my friends have boyfriends who their attached at the hip with or just are on a totally different page than I am. It kind of sucks because I feel like I watch out for all my friends...whether its just calling to see how their doing, or to see if they need anything...and no one ever calls me back or does the same for me. Its kind of funny actually to see who comments in these things when I'm having a bad day...their comments usually go sometihng like this: "Jaya I love you!!!" or... "Jaya omg you know i'm always here for you"...or wait "Jaya I miss you. we need to hang out". How cliche. I'm going to be pretty blunt...It pisses me off when people say shit like that... I just wanna say fuck you to them. Because if you missed me that much. You would pick up the phone and just call to say hello or just see how I was doing...but I guess things change...people change. not always for the best. So basically I've given up on the whole friend aspect of my life.yess. I took the easy way out :(
On the flip side, I guess i've reached that point in my life where my siblings or my mom and dad aren't "annoying" anymore. They're more like a support system. Family is everything. seriosuly. My parents are lot cooler...then getting a lot more "chilled" in their older years ::haha:: My biological father and I talked a lot but for the first time ever really. He asked me about, school, track and boys. It really made me feel like he actually cares...I know he has never really been there for me....but its nice to know that he's making the effort. that counts for something in my book... I love my sister Sharece so much. Its weird how she calls me for advice or when shes upset. Its like the age difference disappears. It feels good to have that type of relationship with my older sister. Ricky is great. he definately gives me that "brotherly" aspect on guys and what not. We have a lot of fun together. Micah is still annoying but I thinks she's at that age. where she has a lot of growing up to do. Its definately been good having Lindsay around. I hope Ricky doesn't mess this up...he'll have hell to pay. Lindsay's definately been good to have around. I love her like one of my own sisters. I think we can relate a little bit more than me and Sharece just because the age gap isn't as great. My grandma is doing a lot better now that my uncle is home. I was really worried about her when her dog passed away...just because when my grandpa passed away she was all alone and Misty kept her busy I guess.But now that my uncle's home shes been in such a great mood...and Im happy because she's the love of my life, and I love seeing her happy :) I'm glad to have the family support I have...I really couldn't ask for a better family.
On another note my love life is pretty consistent. I'm so single. But what's new. Ya know? That definately couldn't be the worst thing. I have really strong feelings for someone right now. But thats another story. I really think I come off as being a litte "stand offish" to guys. I really don't do it intentionally. I just try so hard to protect myself from the guys that are up to no good, that I don't give other people a chance. I guess you could say I have big trusts issues. For very good reasons. But I definately need to get over it. Its something i'm making a conscious effort on working on. I'm not to worried about this part of my life. I mean I get kinda sad every now and then when I see my friends with their boyfriends...but then again things aren't always as they appear. thats for sure...Work and School keeps my mind off of that.
Oh yeah...I'm a dance teacher. Hip hop and tap. The kids are so damn cute. I love how honest and genuine kids are too you gotta love it. Some of my co-workers yell so much at them. And that's definately going to be something we're going to bump heads about sooner or later. You really don't have to yell to get your point across. Yelling really isn't my forte'...so...they're going to have to chill that shit out. seriosuly.
**Lastly, everyone keep those affected by the Katrina Disaster in your thoughs and prayers. Also, it really wouldn't be a bad to donate anything you have. seriously. A dollar...some quarters whatever. It really will make a difference. :)
well I just thoughtI'd update my livejounal and myspace. Because I haven't really written in it in a while.
As far as friends go I don't really have any to be quite honest. But i'm not upset or anything because that usually happens when you graduate from high school. You definately find out who your real friends are.Its weird to go from being "the social butterfly"...to not really talking to anyone. Me and Elena aren't friends anymore. thats another story. Me and Lindsey are still best friends. But shes still in high school, and there's certain stuff that she can do, that I can't do...just because there's that age difference...ya know? Josh is always helpful. Hes always there to listen and to give me advice and I really appreciate that. He's probably the most consistent friend I have in my life right now...I was talking to Alaura the other day...she was telling me how alone she felt. And it kind of made me feel a little bit better (I know that sounds bad) just because I feel the exact same way and its good to know that i'm not the only one. It just seems like all of my friends have boyfriends who their attached at the hip with or just are on a totally different page than I am. It kind of sucks because I feel like I watch out for all my friends...whether its just calling to see how their doing, or to see if they need anything...and no one ever calls me back or does the same for me. Its kind of funny actually to see who comments in these things when I'm having a bad day...their comments usually go sometihng like this: "Jaya I love you!!!" or... "Jaya omg you know i'm always here for you"...or wait "Jaya I miss you. we need to hang out". How cliche. I'm going to be pretty blunt...It pisses me off when people say shit like that... I just wanna say fuck you to them. Because if you missed me that much. You would pick up the phone and just call to say hello or just see how I was doing...but I guess things change...people change. not always for the best. So basically I've given up on the whole friend aspect of my life.yess. I took the easy way out :(
On the flip side, I guess i've reached that point in my life where my siblings or my mom and dad aren't "annoying" anymore. They're more like a support system. Family is everything. seriosuly. My parents are lot cooler...then getting a lot more "chilled" in their older years ::haha:: My biological father and I talked a lot but for the first time ever really. He asked me about, school, track and boys. It really made me feel like he actually cares...I know he has never really been there for me....but its nice to know that he's making the effort. that counts for something in my book... I love my sister Sharece so much. Its weird how she calls me for advice or when shes upset. Its like the age difference disappears. It feels good to have that type of relationship with my older sister. Ricky is great. he definately gives me that "brotherly" aspect on guys and what not. We have a lot of fun together. Micah is still annoying but I thinks she's at that age. where she has a lot of growing up to do. Its definately been good having Lindsay around. I hope Ricky doesn't mess this up...he'll have hell to pay. Lindsay's definately been good to have around. I love her like one of my own sisters. I think we can relate a little bit more than me and Sharece just because the age gap isn't as great. My grandma is doing a lot better now that my uncle is home. I was really worried about her when her dog passed away...just because when my grandpa passed away she was all alone and Misty kept her busy I guess.But now that my uncle's home shes been in such a great mood...and Im happy because she's the love of my life, and I love seeing her happy :) I'm glad to have the family support I have...I really couldn't ask for a better family.
On another note my love life is pretty consistent. I'm so single. But what's new. Ya know? That definately couldn't be the worst thing. I have really strong feelings for someone right now. But thats another story. I really think I come off as being a litte "stand offish" to guys. I really don't do it intentionally. I just try so hard to protect myself from the guys that are up to no good, that I don't give other people a chance. I guess you could say I have big trusts issues. For very good reasons. But I definately need to get over it. Its something i'm making a conscious effort on working on. I'm not to worried about this part of my life. I mean I get kinda sad every now and then when I see my friends with their boyfriends...but then again things aren't always as they appear. thats for sure...Work and School keeps my mind off of that.
Oh yeah...I'm a dance teacher. Hip hop and tap. The kids are so damn cute. I love how honest and genuine kids are too you gotta love it. Some of my co-workers yell so much at them. And that's definately going to be something we're going to bump heads about sooner or later. You really don't have to yell to get your point across. Yelling really isn't my forte'...so...they're going to have to chill that shit out. seriosuly.
**Lastly, everyone keep those affected by the Katrina Disaster in your thoughs and prayers. Also, it really wouldn't be a bad to donate anything you have. seriously. A dollar...some quarters whatever. It really will make a difference. :)
well I just thoughtI'd update my livejounal and myspace. Because I haven't really written in it in a while.