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[baybee13]

Well I dont really know what to do these days, its like everything I do or every desicion it's always fucked up in so many different ways, but whatever; I don't even care anymore, because unless something bad happens... lets just say everyday, then life would be soo boreing. Well what can you do when life goes wrong, but hang out with people you actually like, and who like you back :) haha. Anyways, I cant stand people who always talk about people it's so anoying, I know I have done my fair share of talking about people, but I learnt from it, and grew up, it's like nobody else has, and when I am the only one who understands things sometimes and when I try to explain something to someone, it doesnt even matter, because they dont understand it anyways, but whatever.
You know those people that mean so much to you, and that you'd die for, and the ones you honestly couldnt live without, and the ones you just wish would stay in your life for years and years ahead, and you dont expect them to say something to you, that just hurts you so much, it feels like your being stabbed? Sometimes I wish I didn't feel like that for people, because the ones I dont expect these kind of things from, always end up hurting me, and letting me down, and making me feel like shit about myself, and I just can't help but take it to heart, yeah maybe they are kidding in some way,  but you cant always be to sure about what people are actually meaning when they say it, more then half the time someone says something and then 'just joking' comes out after, they are most likely not, and meant every word they said, thats why it's so difficult to know what people are really feeling and what people really want to say, but now that I have been so hurt by someone who said something to me, that just hit me hard, now I know what to expect people to think of me;

1. 
   Annoying
2. 
   Bitch
3. 
   Stick stuck up my ass
4. 
   Fun
5. 
   Mean
6. 
   To happy
7. 
   2 second attention span...
   
   Its like people never win, its always got to be something bad, no matter what, even if you dont ask for it, you get it. I cant STAND that, I dont deserve to be hurt and told that shit, the least you could do to spare me the pain, is RE-WORD your sentences instead of being so blunt.