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wow. I was sitting in class the other day thinking... and I realized that I don't think I've ever been happier in my entire life. Sean and Terry make me so freakin happy it's unreal. Not to say that my friends before haven't made me happy, because I've pretty much always been pretty happy. Give or take a couple of years... I think we all know which years those were.
Valentine's day is approaching, and I'm not at all sad that I'm single. I'm actually still happy living the single life. And really, I'm single... but I'm not at all alone. I freakin love Terry so much and the relationship that we have. We understand each other so well, we never ever fight, and when we do.. we just talk it out and it's over and done with within 5 minutes. Or else they are stupid fights... and we both realize we're being stupid and just get over it.
I think I've spent like a total of 5 nights without him in the past 2 months... and those were nights that I was in Indy visiting my parents. He always spends the night at my house, or me at his. We are so comfortable with each other... and luckily the boy girl thing doesn't get in the way. Obviously.. lol. It's like I'm getting all of the GOOD stuff out of a real relationship, without any of the sexual/jealousy fighting issues of a real one. It's perfect, really. We've gotten to the point where we like cuddle every night when we go to sleep. Not hard core, but I usually sleep with my feet in between his calves, and the other night I slept between him and matt on the futon mattress. We were really crowded, so Terry slept with his arm out on his side, and then had his other one around me. It's seriously stupid little things like that that make me SO incredibly happy.
Another thing... on Saturday night we drank and had a birthday party for tyler over at amanda's house. eventually, amanda got dangerously drunk and she needed it quiet so we came over to my house... I don't really know what happened, but I started to get upset about something... and Terry was just like "Rachel, come here." and he gave me a hug and then kissed me on the forhead. That is my absolute FAVORITE thing in the whole world.. I have always said that. And since I've been makin him watch dawson's creek with me lately... pacey does that to andie all the time... and I always throw a pretend fit and start rambling about how it's my favorite thing ever. So he did it on purpose, knowing it would make me happy. It totally made my night.
Another thing... we got in THE cutest fight in the world the other night. It was adorable! Terry always gets mad for some reason when I make out with Tyler... even though it means absolutely nothing. Or if I hang out with Tyler when Terry isn't around... he doens't get mad, but you can tell it bothers him... because I guess Tyler always does that to Terry's close friends--tries to take them from him. Anyways, Terry was reall drunk and had started not paying much attention to me, so I was doing the same thing back... and me and tyler were laying on the futon mattress together in the living room. we were laying Super close and just talking... and I was like "toaster?" and tyler didn't know what that meant. Well, toaster is what I always say to terry when my feet are cold and i want him to lift up his top leg so I can put my feet in between them to get warm... we do it every night. So I explained that to Tyler, and he lifted his leg up and let me put my feet there. Well, then terry started acting all weird and went outside to smoke. Tyler got up to go check on him.. and I layed there. Tyler came back in and said Terry wouldn't talk to him. I know it was something that require me talking to him, but I was SO cold and drunk and tired... while I was thinking about whether or not I was going to get up... I passed out.
Terry eventually came in.. and I was already asleep. I woke up to him crying sort of... and as soon as I opened my eyes he goes "You don't even care about me anymore." i was like oooooh my god, i'm a bitch. So i talked to him, asked him why he said that... he was like "Why didn't you come outside to see if I was okay? You know I would have been the first one out there if it was you." I felt like an ass because I couldn't say "Oh, I was cold and drunk... and I accidentally passed out." so I told him I was sorry, gave him a really big hug, but I knew something was still wrong. He kept saying "nothing, it's stupid. it's dumb. i don't even wanna say it." we went on like this for like 10 minuets...
finally i was like okay well if you wanna talk, you know i'm here. then after like a minute of silence... he goes "toaster." I knew that's what upset him and that was his answer, but I played along and said-OK. and lifted my leg up... lol
he goes i told you why i was upset.
and i was like no you didn't.
he said toaster again... i told him i was confused. lol
he was like.. You asked Tyler to do the toaster thing with you, and that's "our" thing. I know it's dumb..
I just looked at him and smiled and was like awwwww terry...
and he just got this huge ass smile on his face and then pulled the covers over his face. so then we just cuddled and fell asleep doing the toaster thing.... it was so cute. god i LOVE him!
I don't know what I'd do without him in my life. I can't wait to live with him and Sean next year... it's such a big step for me. I've always been so shy, and I"m moving in with 2 guys i've only known since August.
Speaking of that... work is also going well. I had my 1 year eval with my boss yesterday... my items per hour scan rate is way over what they want us to be at, which is good...
somehow it said that I had 0 absences even though i had like 8... and she said i'm reliable and have better attendance then most LOL
ummmm.. she said I have the "perfect outgoing and friendly personality for service desk"... and that she wants to train me at customer service and lay away if i'm interested. We'll see if that happens...
AND I got a 40 cent raise! loves it!!! That had me thinking too... I was super happy--she said I was outgoing with customers and that I was always friendly with people. She never would have said that to me if she'd have known me like 3 years ago...
anyways, wow that was a pretty long post. I'm actually in the computer lab in the business building right now... just got out of psych and then i have ISOM 351 from 2-2:50... and then I have to run home, eat, change, then work from 4-11. After work I have to study for a finance quiz, do my finance homework, do my acc 301 homework, and study for my 306 test. All of which starts back to back at 11 tomorrow morning... I'm a busy busy girl! and i love it love it love it!
Valentine's day is approaching, and I'm not at all sad that I'm single. I'm actually still happy living the single life. And really, I'm single... but I'm not at all alone. I freakin love Terry so much and the relationship that we have. We understand each other so well, we never ever fight, and when we do.. we just talk it out and it's over and done with within 5 minutes. Or else they are stupid fights... and we both realize we're being stupid and just get over it.
I think I've spent like a total of 5 nights without him in the past 2 months... and those were nights that I was in Indy visiting my parents. He always spends the night at my house, or me at his. We are so comfortable with each other... and luckily the boy girl thing doesn't get in the way. Obviously.. lol. It's like I'm getting all of the GOOD stuff out of a real relationship, without any of the sexual/jealousy fighting issues of a real one. It's perfect, really. We've gotten to the point where we like cuddle every night when we go to sleep. Not hard core, but I usually sleep with my feet in between his calves, and the other night I slept between him and matt on the futon mattress. We were really crowded, so Terry slept with his arm out on his side, and then had his other one around me. It's seriously stupid little things like that that make me SO incredibly happy.
Another thing... on Saturday night we drank and had a birthday party for tyler over at amanda's house. eventually, amanda got dangerously drunk and she needed it quiet so we came over to my house... I don't really know what happened, but I started to get upset about something... and Terry was just like "Rachel, come here." and he gave me a hug and then kissed me on the forhead. That is my absolute FAVORITE thing in the whole world.. I have always said that. And since I've been makin him watch dawson's creek with me lately... pacey does that to andie all the time... and I always throw a pretend fit and start rambling about how it's my favorite thing ever. So he did it on purpose, knowing it would make me happy. It totally made my night.
Another thing... we got in THE cutest fight in the world the other night. It was adorable! Terry always gets mad for some reason when I make out with Tyler... even though it means absolutely nothing. Or if I hang out with Tyler when Terry isn't around... he doens't get mad, but you can tell it bothers him... because I guess Tyler always does that to Terry's close friends--tries to take them from him. Anyways, Terry was reall drunk and had started not paying much attention to me, so I was doing the same thing back... and me and tyler were laying on the futon mattress together in the living room. we were laying Super close and just talking... and I was like "toaster?" and tyler didn't know what that meant. Well, toaster is what I always say to terry when my feet are cold and i want him to lift up his top leg so I can put my feet in between them to get warm... we do it every night. So I explained that to Tyler, and he lifted his leg up and let me put my feet there. Well, then terry started acting all weird and went outside to smoke. Tyler got up to go check on him.. and I layed there. Tyler came back in and said Terry wouldn't talk to him. I know it was something that require me talking to him, but I was SO cold and drunk and tired... while I was thinking about whether or not I was going to get up... I passed out.
Terry eventually came in.. and I was already asleep. I woke up to him crying sort of... and as soon as I opened my eyes he goes "You don't even care about me anymore." i was like oooooh my god, i'm a bitch. So i talked to him, asked him why he said that... he was like "Why didn't you come outside to see if I was okay? You know I would have been the first one out there if it was you." I felt like an ass because I couldn't say "Oh, I was cold and drunk... and I accidentally passed out." so I told him I was sorry, gave him a really big hug, but I knew something was still wrong. He kept saying "nothing, it's stupid. it's dumb. i don't even wanna say it." we went on like this for like 10 minuets...
finally i was like okay well if you wanna talk, you know i'm here. then after like a minute of silence... he goes "toaster." I knew that's what upset him and that was his answer, but I played along and said-OK. and lifted my leg up... lol
he goes i told you why i was upset.
and i was like no you didn't.
he said toaster again... i told him i was confused. lol
he was like.. You asked Tyler to do the toaster thing with you, and that's "our" thing. I know it's dumb..
I just looked at him and smiled and was like awwwww terry...
and he just got this huge ass smile on his face and then pulled the covers over his face. so then we just cuddled and fell asleep doing the toaster thing.... it was so cute. god i LOVE him!
I don't know what I'd do without him in my life. I can't wait to live with him and Sean next year... it's such a big step for me. I've always been so shy, and I"m moving in with 2 guys i've only known since August.
Speaking of that... work is also going well. I had my 1 year eval with my boss yesterday... my items per hour scan rate is way over what they want us to be at, which is good...
somehow it said that I had 0 absences even though i had like 8... and she said i'm reliable and have better attendance then most LOL
ummmm.. she said I have the "perfect outgoing and friendly personality for service desk"... and that she wants to train me at customer service and lay away if i'm interested. We'll see if that happens...
AND I got a 40 cent raise! loves it!!! That had me thinking too... I was super happy--she said I was outgoing with customers and that I was always friendly with people. She never would have said that to me if she'd have known me like 3 years ago...
anyways, wow that was a pretty long post. I'm actually in the computer lab in the business building right now... just got out of psych and then i have ISOM 351 from 2-2:50... and then I have to run home, eat, change, then work from 4-11. After work I have to study for a finance quiz, do my finance homework, do my acc 301 homework, and study for my 306 test. All of which starts back to back at 11 tomorrow morning... I'm a busy busy girl! and i love it love it love it!