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I used to be okay doing all the work. Well, okay, fine, not entirely, but I can manage. It's because I know that when I don't do the work, we'll end up with a subpar output. And, I'm not satisfied with a subpar work. Now, though, I'm tired of being the brains of everything. It's mentally-, and almost physically-, draining. I can't be a one-man show anymore. And, the things is, everyone gets the credit. Sure, they helped, but with what? Powerpoint? Format? They're useless compared to what I contributed. The problem is, even that, I still end up editing. The bulk and quality of the work was all me. ME. I'm thankful for the little insights. Yes, I can't deny that it did help with thought process. But, I expected more from them.
(Now talking about a different group) I passes a paper that was all me as well (I mean, I had to redo almost the entire work my groupmates made). Some of them only helped with the preliminary part of the solution. Again, this was all me. And, what score did "we" get? Fifty-three-point-fucking-seven. That's more than half of the highest possible grade. Well, what do you know? I can contribute more than my groupmates combined. I consist more than half of the so-called "team". Ugh.
I'm sorry. I really need to get this out. It's been this way since the start of the sem. When I found out who my groupmates were, I knew I was doomed. I thought I was thankful since one of the three groups I have are with my friends. Turns out they weren't much help either. The one I was truly thankful for was the other one. At least, I was able to coax them into doing the rest of the final work. What they had to do was few since I already edited majority of it, but, at least, they were happy enough to take the burden away from me. What makes it even worse is the fact that I don't even like this course. I don't even like it, yet I'm so much better than they are. Call it mayabang, but it's the truth.
Last three days for the semester. I just need three-days-worth of strength, Lord. Please help me. :(
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