Don't read this it's just getting shit off my chest.
Every single time I do something nice for certain freinds they spit in my face immediately afterwards. They complain I never take the time to think hey how do they feel? Bullshit, they ruin my posessions and only say sorry and if I mess something up thats fixable they still throw a shit fit and tell me its the principle that matters. If I walk away i'm called a pussy and then if they do it I have to say sorry or everyone decides to outcast me cause I'm heartless. Why do I have to bend over backwards and they submit myself to such torture? Why do I still back down from personal gain? Why do I not just say I want something and let them deal with the suffering as I have done so many times before? I do not seek sympathy I just want respect from certain people who I shall never recieve it from. Is this the same kind of dream that one has as if expecting great fortune and wealth or is this a simple request? I put up with this ridiculous behavior everytime I seek social interaction. And these are the same people who ask me to get weekends off. I ask myself why should I, why should I subject myself to this cruelty? As I write this they call my home and cell phones. Why call me, so you can spit in my face? Because I walked away before you could do so?