Obstacles
Topic: What is the biggest obstacle you have overcome in your existence?
Muse: Gabrielle
Fandom: Xena
I was never one of those people who suffered from what we might refer to as poor self-esteem. I mean, self love wasn’t an issue, and I liked being me. After Xena came, I walked miles in her shadow and I was happy to bask there, sheltered in the shadow of her light. I never felt as though I had been made less for being a sidekick to the warrior princess.
Then the Amazons came into my life, and I found myself becoming a queen. After that, my journey took me further down the warrior’s path. As this journey began and continued, I was met time and time again with a lack of confidence that was completely new to me. In order to move towards my destiny, I was forced to re-create myself in the face of great self-doubt. Doubt that I was physically capable of going where my life seemed determined to take me, but even more I doubted that I was spiritually or emotionally capable of walking that road.
Slowly I was forced to grow out of Xena’s shadow to take my place by her side. No longer allowed to walk a step behind, I had to shed my former identity as a simple bard and healer who refused to kill and become instead a warrior, capable of doing what had to be done in order to protect the innocent.
They say that rebirth comes with great pain and follows in the wake of blood, and so it did. No struggle in my life has ever been harder then this transformation of body and soul.
Muse: Gabrielle
Fandom: Xena
I was never one of those people who suffered from what we might refer to as poor self-esteem. I mean, self love wasn’t an issue, and I liked being me. After Xena came, I walked miles in her shadow and I was happy to bask there, sheltered in the shadow of her light. I never felt as though I had been made less for being a sidekick to the warrior princess.
Then the Amazons came into my life, and I found myself becoming a queen. After that, my journey took me further down the warrior’s path. As this journey began and continued, I was met time and time again with a lack of confidence that was completely new to me. In order to move towards my destiny, I was forced to re-create myself in the face of great self-doubt. Doubt that I was physically capable of going where my life seemed determined to take me, but even more I doubted that I was spiritually or emotionally capable of walking that road.
Slowly I was forced to grow out of Xena’s shadow to take my place by her side. No longer allowed to walk a step behind, I had to shed my former identity as a simple bard and healer who refused to kill and become instead a warrior, capable of doing what had to be done in order to protect the innocent.
They say that rebirth comes with great pain and follows in the wake of blood, and so it did. No struggle in my life has ever been harder then this transformation of body and soul.