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Me again. End of the year, end of the road.
Second verse same as the first, except I got the girl this year, then lost her four and a half months later, and I've mourned that shit ever since. Kept my health and most of that money, though, but if some personal matters continue the way that they've been, the latter's probably going to change soon. Bills to pay on top of a year spent running in circles with the state because they 'overpaid my unemployment benefits due to a period of ineligibility'; they just denied an appeal of mine without realizing what it is I was appealing in the first place, citing completely different things...
Honestly, I don't know what goes on anymore. I haven't known who I am in years, and I continue to drift away from most people. Cool and memorable stuff's happened in 2021 as well, don't get me wrong, and I'm hoping those will snowball for me in the next year. I'm more or less in an ongoing process of figuring things out, and struggling to forgive myself for all the unfortunate and hurtful mistakes I made where my love life's concerned, what little of it I had going.
A mixed bag. It's all just a shining example of the biggest mixed bag I can think of.
Fuck it, I know I'm getting older because I'm shunning alcohol for a modest late-night dinner and taking it easy. I'll use the excuse it's so I can go to work tomorrow clear-headed, but really, I'm just old. Can't put my body through the paces of certain substances like I used to.
See you in like, six months.
Second verse same as the first, except I got the girl this year, then lost her four and a half months later, and I've mourned that shit ever since. Kept my health and most of that money, though, but if some personal matters continue the way that they've been, the latter's probably going to change soon. Bills to pay on top of a year spent running in circles with the state because they 'overpaid my unemployment benefits due to a period of ineligibility'; they just denied an appeal of mine without realizing what it is I was appealing in the first place, citing completely different things...
Honestly, I don't know what goes on anymore. I haven't known who I am in years, and I continue to drift away from most people. Cool and memorable stuff's happened in 2021 as well, don't get me wrong, and I'm hoping those will snowball for me in the next year. I'm more or less in an ongoing process of figuring things out, and struggling to forgive myself for all the unfortunate and hurtful mistakes I made where my love life's concerned, what little of it I had going.
A mixed bag. It's all just a shining example of the biggest mixed bag I can think of.
Fuck it, I know I'm getting older because I'm shunning alcohol for a modest late-night dinner and taking it easy. I'll use the excuse it's so I can go to work tomorrow clear-headed, but really, I'm just old. Can't put my body through the paces of certain substances like I used to.
See you in like, six months.