Hmmmmmmm yes...........
Well, I promised someone that I would update so here we go.
College is definitely better than I first thought it was. I'm still pretty homesick but I try not to show it. I've made a lot of new friends and that makes me happy. This guy named Lars is ridiculously similar to Eric, Jeff, Keith, Tony and me. It's like I've been friends with him for a really long time. Tonight was open-door night and it was pretty sweet. These kids in B208 (i think) have a quad (four people to a room) and it hass a stripper pole in it. Of course it wasn't put there for that purpose but I'm sure someone has and will use it for that again. My mom sent me a package yesterday and it showed up today. I was really excited and when I got it, I shook it of course.....and it sounded like mac and cheese. So I opened it and I was wrong...it was snow caps and rice krispies. Not mac and cheese but still cool.
So after all that activity, I played capture the flag. Not on a video game or anything. It was CTF, 2A vs 2B. I'm on the 2A side and my RA is studying to be a personal trainer or something of that type. So naturally we kicked the other sides asses just cause we have Mike (my RA). The game started outside at 10 and we were all yelling profanities and such and other people would yell out their dorm windows to "Shut the hell up!".....and we didn't (scary evil laugh!)
Ok, I had this loaf of bread in my room for a while now and today I wanted to make a sandwich so I go get the bread and its all moldy. For some weird reason, Keith had the key to Lars' room.......soooooo, being the malicious me, I took the loaf of bread, slightly opened the bag and put it under Lars' bed......I wonder if he'll figure out that the horrible smell he smells in a while is coming from under his bed? I'm so bad. I won't let it get too bad though...don't worry.
Now for a question.....Why do people fear loss, rejecton and possibly even replacement so much? I am one of those people and yet I don't even know the answer to my own question. I confuse myself and anger myself with this question too often.....
Ok now thats off my mind, lets go to the thing thats always on my mind 24/7. Did you think I could go a whole post without talking about Mel? Are you crazy? I bet everyone that reads this (all two of you) is probably sick of me talking about my relationship. But I'm not sick of it so I'm going to talk about it. Everything is going great, even with the distance. Sure there have been small things that we've worked out but I still feel that things are amazing. I feel really sorry for Mel because she has mono and I have no way to make things better for her. I know what it's like but I know she'll be alright. I just wish i could be with her to help out in someway. Just to talk to in person or a simple massage....I just wish there was someting I could do to help. I guess the phone is the only substitute for now =(. This friday will be two months for us. I know most people say you can't love somone in that short of time. But they are wrong. I've had a perception of what I thought love was before, but this is so much different and I can't explain it. It's definitely a good thing, just very hard to put into words. I just wish there was a way for me to see her everyday. That would probably solve my 'fear" problem.......
I remembered that I don't have pants to wear tomorrow because I forgot to do laundry. I know what you're sayin' just wear a pair that you've already worn, they can't be that dirty. But trust me, I've used that option past the point one should.... Oh well, I guess tomorrow will just have to be a pajama and sweatshirt day...too bad, I get to be comfortable allllll day long. Except I think I might be going to the gym with Lars and Chris....hmmm...maybe the comfort won't last all day.....dang.
Well its quite past my bedtime, so I shall mosey on over to my sleeping quarters and wallow in my sheets until my sweet slumber occurs.................I have no idea where that came from......
Oh and one final question: Is insecurity an emotion we truly need? Because in my experience it only causes yourself and even others to feel bad, and sometimes causes slight, short-lived conflicts........
Well off to bed for me, G'night everyone, hope to see everyone soon. Adios
College is definitely better than I first thought it was. I'm still pretty homesick but I try not to show it. I've made a lot of new friends and that makes me happy. This guy named Lars is ridiculously similar to Eric, Jeff, Keith, Tony and me. It's like I've been friends with him for a really long time. Tonight was open-door night and it was pretty sweet. These kids in B208 (i think) have a quad (four people to a room) and it hass a stripper pole in it. Of course it wasn't put there for that purpose but I'm sure someone has and will use it for that again. My mom sent me a package yesterday and it showed up today. I was really excited and when I got it, I shook it of course.....and it sounded like mac and cheese. So I opened it and I was wrong...it was snow caps and rice krispies. Not mac and cheese but still cool.
So after all that activity, I played capture the flag. Not on a video game or anything. It was CTF, 2A vs 2B. I'm on the 2A side and my RA is studying to be a personal trainer or something of that type. So naturally we kicked the other sides asses just cause we have Mike (my RA). The game started outside at 10 and we were all yelling profanities and such and other people would yell out their dorm windows to "Shut the hell up!".....and we didn't (scary evil laugh!)
Ok, I had this loaf of bread in my room for a while now and today I wanted to make a sandwich so I go get the bread and its all moldy. For some weird reason, Keith had the key to Lars' room.......soooooo, being the malicious me, I took the loaf of bread, slightly opened the bag and put it under Lars' bed......I wonder if he'll figure out that the horrible smell he smells in a while is coming from under his bed? I'm so bad. I won't let it get too bad though...don't worry.
Now for a question.....Why do people fear loss, rejecton and possibly even replacement so much? I am one of those people and yet I don't even know the answer to my own question. I confuse myself and anger myself with this question too often.....
Ok now thats off my mind, lets go to the thing thats always on my mind 24/7. Did you think I could go a whole post without talking about Mel? Are you crazy? I bet everyone that reads this (all two of you) is probably sick of me talking about my relationship. But I'm not sick of it so I'm going to talk about it. Everything is going great, even with the distance. Sure there have been small things that we've worked out but I still feel that things are amazing. I feel really sorry for Mel because she has mono and I have no way to make things better for her. I know what it's like but I know she'll be alright. I just wish i could be with her to help out in someway. Just to talk to in person or a simple massage....I just wish there was someting I could do to help. I guess the phone is the only substitute for now =(. This friday will be two months for us. I know most people say you can't love somone in that short of time. But they are wrong. I've had a perception of what I thought love was before, but this is so much different and I can't explain it. It's definitely a good thing, just very hard to put into words. I just wish there was a way for me to see her everyday. That would probably solve my 'fear" problem.......
I remembered that I don't have pants to wear tomorrow because I forgot to do laundry. I know what you're sayin' just wear a pair that you've already worn, they can't be that dirty. But trust me, I've used that option past the point one should.... Oh well, I guess tomorrow will just have to be a pajama and sweatshirt day...too bad, I get to be comfortable allllll day long. Except I think I might be going to the gym with Lars and Chris....hmmm...maybe the comfort won't last all day.....dang.
Well its quite past my bedtime, so I shall mosey on over to my sleeping quarters and wallow in my sheets until my sweet slumber occurs.................I have no idea where that came from......
Oh and one final question: Is insecurity an emotion we truly need? Because in my experience it only causes yourself and even others to feel bad, and sometimes causes slight, short-lived conflicts........
Well off to bed for me, G'night everyone, hope to see everyone soon. Adios