its been a while
wow it has really been a while since I have updated this thing...and soo much has happend...and its soo crazy how life throws things at you...I mean you think you really believe someone cares for you and you actually believe that things could work out and then you find out they still have someone on the side...or are still speaking to their past loves...its sad and I keep falling for the same shit...its becoming ridiculous..its sad how finally I am starting to catch on to it...but I guess its better now than never right?...and also how one person can honestly change your life...and I believe I have honestly met that one person...he has honestly changed my life, and I don't even think he knows it...and I honestly do care for him...he's like the closest thing to what I would want in someone, he's always there for me even when my best friends aren't he'll even listen to me at like 4 in the morning even if he's half asleep..he'll just listen to me and actually have something to say and he'll check up on me to make sure I'm "better" its crazy I can even type something to him and he automatically knows whats wrong with me...I just hope he knows that I do care...I've said it countless times, but I don't know if he thinks I'm just saying it, or if I mean it...*sigh* I guess I'll never know...