thoughts. ramblings.
[mood
tired]
[music everything you want - vertical horizon]
i am now a jazz dork. okay not really. but i do ♥ nat king cole. thanks to mom because um... she likes him and i like him too.
my day went by fine. i saw kuya ronan! i haven't seen him since 2 weeks ago. and everyone was wearing red today. today was a bit nostalgic. im starting to miss everyone again! i miss the past group even if i know nothing is ever going to happen, i also miss my classmates(EVERYONE even if i hate some of them), i miss my nieces and my adorable nephew.
i know i haven't been incontact much because im a lonely little puddle of water sitting infront of the computer ravishingly typing out things in a very "stream of conciousness" way.
another thing is funny i mean have you realized how fast time is slipping through our hands? isn't it scary that its actually march 29th already and everything seems like such a big blurr. i cannot accept the fact that i went through march and it seems that i've wasted everything. i mean its like a wake-up call from God. 15 years went by through my life and its like i haven't done anything. sure i had a few accomplishments here and there but thinking about how things are it doesn't seem to make sense really. another thought that invades my mind is what-if i die tommorow? i know i shouldn't speak of such things. isn't it scary that you couldn't remember anything and then you'd face God ashamed that you haven't done much in the life He's allowed you to have. i'd have to face Him thinking about why i haven't spent much time with Him? gives me the shivers mates. march passed by and i'd have to say i'd wasted that month. i pretty much wasted a lot of things. i mean like someone said, what if you meet God and he could've showed you the image of what you could have been?! which is something that you know you could've been. its frustrating really.
another thing that seems to trouble me much is the la f word. lacking communication and understanding. i dont know why but when she was here everyone seemed to understand each other. i dont know where's the u there. and yes it still doesn't change the fact that i loathe him.:/
anyways im happy with mom now. she's so nice. we get a long really well nowadays. i'd think about the days wherein we'd fight. thats quite rare nowadays.:]
okay. fine. in a lighter note,
im going to wake up early tommorow. myka is having voice lessons. im so proud of her. she's only 7 but she sure knows how to sing. we're having 2 dogs soon. 2 shih tzu's. one male and one female i have know idea what to call them. mom said the poodle would be coming in around april something. i want a cat! a russian blue please. im a sucker for russian blue's. anyways i havent thought of the names of the dogs. i'll name the girl most prolly bean and the boy sand. well depends on the colors anyways. and im pretty fickle when it comes to names so i still dont know. maybe if its a light yellow and white colored then sand. but the other one has to be bean! it just has to be!:] mom's going to have the poodle btw. sometimes i'd wonder what-if poodles were vampires? i got the crazy idea from r.l. stine. speaking of books im still stuck on memoirs of a geisha. i'll finish my memoirs soon then i'll move on to the sandman i guess. i havent even finished the gossip girl series.:/ oh well. and yes im still itching for that hidalgo trip.:P
well thats about it. im pretty tired and like i said earlier i have to wake up early.
au revoir.♥
tired]
[music everything you want - vertical horizon]
i am now a jazz dork. okay not really. but i do ♥ nat king cole. thanks to mom because um... she likes him and i like him too.
my day went by fine. i saw kuya ronan! i haven't seen him since 2 weeks ago. and everyone was wearing red today. today was a bit nostalgic. im starting to miss everyone again! i miss the past group even if i know nothing is ever going to happen, i also miss my classmates(EVERYONE even if i hate some of them), i miss my nieces and my adorable nephew.
i know i haven't been incontact much because im a lonely little puddle of water sitting infront of the computer ravishingly typing out things in a very "stream of conciousness" way.
another thing is funny i mean have you realized how fast time is slipping through our hands? isn't it scary that its actually march 29th already and everything seems like such a big blurr. i cannot accept the fact that i went through march and it seems that i've wasted everything. i mean its like a wake-up call from God. 15 years went by through my life and its like i haven't done anything. sure i had a few accomplishments here and there but thinking about how things are it doesn't seem to make sense really. another thought that invades my mind is what-if i die tommorow? i know i shouldn't speak of such things. isn't it scary that you couldn't remember anything and then you'd face God ashamed that you haven't done much in the life He's allowed you to have. i'd have to face Him thinking about why i haven't spent much time with Him? gives me the shivers mates. march passed by and i'd have to say i'd wasted that month. i pretty much wasted a lot of things. i mean like someone said, what if you meet God and he could've showed you the image of what you could have been?! which is something that you know you could've been. its frustrating really.
another thing that seems to trouble me much is the la f word. lacking communication and understanding. i dont know why but when she was here everyone seemed to understand each other. i dont know where's the u there. and yes it still doesn't change the fact that i loathe him.:/
anyways im happy with mom now. she's so nice. we get a long really well nowadays. i'd think about the days wherein we'd fight. thats quite rare nowadays.:]
okay. fine. in a lighter note,
im going to wake up early tommorow. myka is having voice lessons. im so proud of her. she's only 7 but she sure knows how to sing. we're having 2 dogs soon. 2 shih tzu's. one male and one female i have know idea what to call them. mom said the poodle would be coming in around april something. i want a cat! a russian blue please. im a sucker for russian blue's. anyways i havent thought of the names of the dogs. i'll name the girl most prolly bean and the boy sand. well depends on the colors anyways. and im pretty fickle when it comes to names so i still dont know. maybe if its a light yellow and white colored then sand. but the other one has to be bean! it just has to be!:] mom's going to have the poodle btw. sometimes i'd wonder what-if poodles were vampires? i got the crazy idea from r.l. stine. speaking of books im still stuck on memoirs of a geisha. i'll finish my memoirs soon then i'll move on to the sandman i guess. i havent even finished the gossip girl series.:/ oh well. and yes im still itching for that hidalgo trip.:P
well thats about it. im pretty tired and like i said earlier i have to wake up early.
au revoir.♥