Spare Change
Change is hard. Change is slow. Change is needed.
There's a lot of places in my life that I need change and other places where I want it and yet other places where it has already happened.
My son has changed to a big boy bed. It's hard for me to accept that. Specially since this evening he seems to be struggling with it. I'm struggling with it too though. It's hard. We used to hold him and cuddle while we sang him a lullaby before we put him down in his crib. Now we just sing to him as he climbs into bed and lies down. That's hard. I really liked that time where we held him and cuddled.
Don't get me wrong. I still have plenty of great moments with him, but for 25 months I've held him before he goes to sleep. Now I don't really do that anymore. Still, change is good; I know that.
My personal life needs some change. I'm struggling with that. I'm a man of pattern, habit, and ritual. I've gotten into some bad habits though, and I'm having trouble changing those habits. It's hard to do. I'm just not used to requiring personal change. I normally just roll with the punches, but I really need to inject some discipline somehow.
I need to get off of regular soda and back onto the diet stuff. I had it down for a while, but now I've lost it. It's not good for me, and I've started to get a little pudgy for it. Along with that, I've stopped exercising as much. Which is normal for the winter months, I normally end up doing. The days get shorter and it leaves less daylight hours for me to get outside and exercise. Still, I need to keep it up. I don't rebound as quickly now that I'm over 30. It's just difficult. Change is hard.
My job needs change and it's slow in coming. I really wish I could move it along faster, but for about 18 months it feels like we've been in a downward spiral. We're struggling with case loads, our training programs are on permanent hold, and even our own Vice President has spoken out about how poor our product is. We need change. I just don't know that it's going to come fast enough.
There's a lot of places in my life that I need change and other places where I want it and yet other places where it has already happened.
My son has changed to a big boy bed. It's hard for me to accept that. Specially since this evening he seems to be struggling with it. I'm struggling with it too though. It's hard. We used to hold him and cuddle while we sang him a lullaby before we put him down in his crib. Now we just sing to him as he climbs into bed and lies down. That's hard. I really liked that time where we held him and cuddled.
Don't get me wrong. I still have plenty of great moments with him, but for 25 months I've held him before he goes to sleep. Now I don't really do that anymore. Still, change is good; I know that.
My personal life needs some change. I'm struggling with that. I'm a man of pattern, habit, and ritual. I've gotten into some bad habits though, and I'm having trouble changing those habits. It's hard to do. I'm just not used to requiring personal change. I normally just roll with the punches, but I really need to inject some discipline somehow.
I need to get off of regular soda and back onto the diet stuff. I had it down for a while, but now I've lost it. It's not good for me, and I've started to get a little pudgy for it. Along with that, I've stopped exercising as much. Which is normal for the winter months, I normally end up doing. The days get shorter and it leaves less daylight hours for me to get outside and exercise. Still, I need to keep it up. I don't rebound as quickly now that I'm over 30. It's just difficult. Change is hard.
My job needs change and it's slow in coming. I really wish I could move it along faster, but for about 18 months it feels like we've been in a downward spiral. We're struggling with case loads, our training programs are on permanent hold, and even our own Vice President has spoken out about how poor our product is. We need change. I just don't know that it's going to come fast enough.