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I'm really excited to go back to Boston in a few days. This break has been... relaxing.... but I'm ready to get back to work and to see my friends and be back in the city. This break has been REALLY good for my music... I've written a song that I'm really actually proud of... and I've been reading a lot more, now that I have copious amounts of free time... and it's been especially good for my writing.
But, it's weird, because every time I come home, I feel less and less attached to Annapolis. The town hasn't changed much, except a few new developments here and there, like the new Towne Center or the new fire station, but the people... the people are different.
For the longest time, I was really convinced and really excited to have that feeling that Annapolis was my real home, and I mean, REAL home, and that it was different than anywhere else I had lived, and it is, to some extent. But, I've noticed, like all of the other places I've lived, that it changes a bit once I leave, and it doesn't leave the same taste in my mouth as it used to.
It seems like everyone at home has drifted so far apart. And not just the typical, we-all-went-away-to-college-and-made-changes-to-our-hair-color-and-our-hobbies bullshit. Like, REALLY drifted apart. And I knew that would happen. Everyone told me it would happen and that we would all change and drift apart and not share the same interests anymore and become different people. But.... honestly, it's really sad.
I know there's nothing I can really do to stop it... shit happens. We have to grow up at SOME point, and with that comes change. But, I just wish it could feel more like home every time I hop in the car for a nine-hour drive to come back. I thought I would be so upset to only spend three weeks at home, and then have to go back to Boston to work, but I've realized it's almost been too long. And I'm actually really excited to see my friends up there and to see the kids from work and to just, plain hang out with friends again, because there's hardly been any of that plain hanging out here... no one seems to have time or the motivation to just relax and enjoy each others' company. And, that, my friends, I find really sad.
I'm glad I had a short break, and it was good to be back for a bit, and to see the people I missed and got to see, but it'll be really good to be back at school soon.
But, it's weird, because every time I come home, I feel less and less attached to Annapolis. The town hasn't changed much, except a few new developments here and there, like the new Towne Center or the new fire station, but the people... the people are different.
For the longest time, I was really convinced and really excited to have that feeling that Annapolis was my real home, and I mean, REAL home, and that it was different than anywhere else I had lived, and it is, to some extent. But, I've noticed, like all of the other places I've lived, that it changes a bit once I leave, and it doesn't leave the same taste in my mouth as it used to.
It seems like everyone at home has drifted so far apart. And not just the typical, we-all-went-away-to-college-and-made-changes-to-our-hair-color-and-our-hobbies bullshit. Like, REALLY drifted apart. And I knew that would happen. Everyone told me it would happen and that we would all change and drift apart and not share the same interests anymore and become different people. But.... honestly, it's really sad.
I know there's nothing I can really do to stop it... shit happens. We have to grow up at SOME point, and with that comes change. But, I just wish it could feel more like home every time I hop in the car for a nine-hour drive to come back. I thought I would be so upset to only spend three weeks at home, and then have to go back to Boston to work, but I've realized it's almost been too long. And I'm actually really excited to see my friends up there and to see the kids from work and to just, plain hang out with friends again, because there's hardly been any of that plain hanging out here... no one seems to have time or the motivation to just relax and enjoy each others' company. And, that, my friends, I find really sad.
I'm glad I had a short break, and it was good to be back for a bit, and to see the people I missed and got to see, but it'll be really good to be back at school soon.