summer 08 theme: change
My birthday was really, really, really good. I think I had the time of my life this summer. This summer was full of changes good and bad. It ran the whole spectrum. Nothing stayed the same this summer. But there were so many changes I don't know what to do with myself. I feel accepted, rejected, unsure, uneasy, confident, helpless, nervous, depressed, and happy all at the same time. I can't control it. I need some stability in my life. Nothing seems to hold anymore. My family has been falling apart since my grandma died. My friends are leaving one by one. I can't take it. It's like I'm watching my life fall apart. But at the same time I have so much ahead of me. I start nuc med this fall. I'm excited but scared shitless.
I don't even want to talk about the female situation. That was a disaster. Twists and turns. Convoluted. Oh, what a tangled web we weave. Like my dad says about women: it's either feast or famine. I think I feel a big famine coming, along with a drought, and a natural disaster. Because when I have bad luck, I really have bad luck for some reason. I think God likes to pick on me sometimes. I hope this female-famine doesn't happen though. Maybe something will pop up at school this year. Not too worried about it. If it happens, it'll happen. I just wish that some other things would've worked out. I do have an incredibly busy semester coming up and that probably would have put a big damper on things.
I really miss Armando. He was like my brother. I'll miss Randy too. Sarah Paige had to leave back to Grosse Pointe randomly and suddenly because of her money and her parents. That was another blow. It all just makes me so sad. Adam and Bill are probably moving back to Saginaw, which is good...for me at least. It will help me retain my sanity a little longer. Growing up is scary only because I don't want to lose my friends or be disconnected from the fun I've been having with them since high school. But I also can't wait to graduate and not be in debt. I want the freedom of living by yourself. I would get really lonely though unless I moved to the same town as a few friends. I wouldn't be able to survive without someone near by to do things with. I think I want to live with friends for a year or so. I also want to take a year off after graduation and try and do medical marijuana research out west. I think that would be a unique experience.
I really want to start playing more music with people. I have creativity flowing through my veins ready to spill out of my fingers onto the fretboard. Once Adam moves back, we're going to try and finish this album. 8 or so songs. I love making music with him for about a half million reasons. Sarah Tagget's going to help record too. That'll be fun. I want to find people to jam with at Ferris too. And make a road trip out to CT to visit Kurt and Kristi. Bahhh. So many things I want to do! Dow Corning has been a good experience. Hopefully I can come back next summer and do a co-op while I take some classes at Ferris. I feel like this is going to be my best summer ever and every one from here on out will suck. I don't want that though. We will have to try and top it.
Enough with the changes in life already! I can't take much more.
I don't even want to talk about the female situation. That was a disaster. Twists and turns. Convoluted. Oh, what a tangled web we weave. Like my dad says about women: it's either feast or famine. I think I feel a big famine coming, along with a drought, and a natural disaster. Because when I have bad luck, I really have bad luck for some reason. I think God likes to pick on me sometimes. I hope this female-famine doesn't happen though. Maybe something will pop up at school this year. Not too worried about it. If it happens, it'll happen. I just wish that some other things would've worked out. I do have an incredibly busy semester coming up and that probably would have put a big damper on things.
I really miss Armando. He was like my brother. I'll miss Randy too. Sarah Paige had to leave back to Grosse Pointe randomly and suddenly because of her money and her parents. That was another blow. It all just makes me so sad. Adam and Bill are probably moving back to Saginaw, which is good...for me at least. It will help me retain my sanity a little longer. Growing up is scary only because I don't want to lose my friends or be disconnected from the fun I've been having with them since high school. But I also can't wait to graduate and not be in debt. I want the freedom of living by yourself. I would get really lonely though unless I moved to the same town as a few friends. I wouldn't be able to survive without someone near by to do things with. I think I want to live with friends for a year or so. I also want to take a year off after graduation and try and do medical marijuana research out west. I think that would be a unique experience.
I really want to start playing more music with people. I have creativity flowing through my veins ready to spill out of my fingers onto the fretboard. Once Adam moves back, we're going to try and finish this album. 8 or so songs. I love making music with him for about a half million reasons. Sarah Tagget's going to help record too. That'll be fun. I want to find people to jam with at Ferris too. And make a road trip out to CT to visit Kurt and Kristi. Bahhh. So many things I want to do! Dow Corning has been a good experience. Hopefully I can come back next summer and do a co-op while I take some classes at Ferris. I feel like this is going to be my best summer ever and every one from here on out will suck. I don't want that though. We will have to try and top it.
Enough with the changes in life already! I can't take much more.