*Cricket, cricket*
Whoa...LiveJournal still exists! Score!
Since nobody reads this anyway, I think I'm going to listen to the wise words of the lovely Alessandra and start "journaling" my thoughts. I always wish I were more eloquent like Josey and her Xanga, but since I am not, it shall just be a nice to way to vent, eh?
So...what's new, what's new? Finals are almost over...and that's nice. Very nice. It's at times like these when I remember going to sleep at 8:00, waking up in the morning excited for an enlightening day at school. No cram sessions, no all-nighters, no nervousness illnesses, no disappointing test scores. In some ways, it all seems blurry, as if that period in my life is lost and there is no chance of rewinding and pressing play. It doesn't make sense how the dynamics of life can change so much in a few years, but then of course, that's life...
Good news: I'm for once in my life slightly proud of myself. Not in a boasting way - it just seems like all of the setbacks and frustrations finally payed off in the form of grades. It took long enough...
I'm still deeply confused about dance, perhaps even more so than ever. The specialty thing was quite upsetting, but the sadness has departed, and now I'm thankful that I took time out to focus on my studies. It's sad how school is my life, but for the next decade, I suppose it has to be my priority. My passion for dance is fading, and realistically, the chances that I will make a career out of it are probably the chances of getting hit by lightning, winning the lottery, and meeting John Wayne all at the same time. The studio politics are confusing and I don't remember ever having suffrage...
So...my mind is certainly full and conflicted. There are so many questions left unanswered - particularly "When will I get to participate in a school play?" Time is running out, and as another production slips by, I feel like I'll never get the chance to do something that I would truly enjoy...
But, enough complaining for now. Children are starving in Africa, and men will eventually destroy the Earth. So much for optimism...
Since nobody reads this anyway, I think I'm going to listen to the wise words of the lovely Alessandra and start "journaling" my thoughts. I always wish I were more eloquent like Josey and her Xanga, but since I am not, it shall just be a nice to way to vent, eh?
So...what's new, what's new? Finals are almost over...and that's nice. Very nice. It's at times like these when I remember going to sleep at 8:00, waking up in the morning excited for an enlightening day at school. No cram sessions, no all-nighters, no nervousness illnesses, no disappointing test scores. In some ways, it all seems blurry, as if that period in my life is lost and there is no chance of rewinding and pressing play. It doesn't make sense how the dynamics of life can change so much in a few years, but then of course, that's life...
Good news: I'm for once in my life slightly proud of myself. Not in a boasting way - it just seems like all of the setbacks and frustrations finally payed off in the form of grades. It took long enough...
I'm still deeply confused about dance, perhaps even more so than ever. The specialty thing was quite upsetting, but the sadness has departed, and now I'm thankful that I took time out to focus on my studies. It's sad how school is my life, but for the next decade, I suppose it has to be my priority. My passion for dance is fading, and realistically, the chances that I will make a career out of it are probably the chances of getting hit by lightning, winning the lottery, and meeting John Wayne all at the same time. The studio politics are confusing and I don't remember ever having suffrage...
So...my mind is certainly full and conflicted. There are so many questions left unanswered - particularly "When will I get to participate in a school play?" Time is running out, and as another production slips by, I feel like I'll never get the chance to do something that I would truly enjoy...
But, enough complaining for now. Children are starving in Africa, and men will eventually destroy the Earth. So much for optimism...