A True Test of Time....
You never really know what is around the corner in life, you never see whats coming until its too late. These are all words that are spoken by people that lack true knowledge of themselves. I have been doing what I am doing for a long time now. At least 10 years, maybe more. I know that I will be put in some really akward and strange situations and I will forever pull through. Now, I know that you are all, both of you, thinking that is a bunch of self proclaiming bullshit, well I haven't ever been faced with something that I can't overcome or have in the end it work out. An example would be when I lost my job last year, I thought I wasn't going to get a new one and by the end of the month, I got a new job at Circuit City.
I started this journal a few hours ago, since then I have gotten into a small argument with Nicole and I have chilled at a friend's house. You wonder in times like these are we really going to make out to anything that we wanted to be when we started. I have never really lost in life, I have had a lot of my plans changed and altered through the course of events that have happened to me. I was going to play football and my blood pressure was too high so I couldn't and from there it didn't get back on track to my original plan. I still plan on suiting up one day, even if its just for one day. I miss being with the people I grew up into who I am now. I know that life is in the end one big circle that is full of a lot of smaller circles.
There used to be one really small group of friends and we were going to be friends forever, well I moved and we were no longer friends anymore. I moved here and met a lot of people, many I thought were friends and we hung out for a long time and as we got older and cliq formed I was never really part of them anymore, because I didn't fit. Well, middle school was much like elementry school, friends we were for years and then when the cycle ended we weren't friends anymore. I started high school trying to be someone, along the way I realized I wasn't anyone and I am not really friends with anyone from there. At the end of my freshman year I became who I am today. I met some more people and we were friends for a while. This cycle contines and I wish it could be like Staind's album where I Break the Cycle, but no cycle is ever broken. It knows that you know that you are in a cycle and you can't do anything about it.
So I am at the end or the begining of yet another cycle, I miss the people that I was with over the years and wonder if the cycles will ever repeat or if familiar faces are able to reoccer. I don't know anymore. I just try to be who I am and work and go to school, continuing towards a degree in which I will be labled a history teacher. I can't prodect the future, except I know that I will always continue, as if I was to quit it would be to lose and in the end if you think about it to eventually die beacause of a failure. Who knew???
I hate to think because it makes me sad and I know that again it is part of some plan that I am not allowed to see. I guess thats why I watch so many movies, to escape a cycle to avoid my life. To know that for 2 hours my life won't be my life, it would be Gimli's or Silent Bob, someone other than Chris, someone other than me.
Peace
Batman
I started this journal a few hours ago, since then I have gotten into a small argument with Nicole and I have chilled at a friend's house. You wonder in times like these are we really going to make out to anything that we wanted to be when we started. I have never really lost in life, I have had a lot of my plans changed and altered through the course of events that have happened to me. I was going to play football and my blood pressure was too high so I couldn't and from there it didn't get back on track to my original plan. I still plan on suiting up one day, even if its just for one day. I miss being with the people I grew up into who I am now. I know that life is in the end one big circle that is full of a lot of smaller circles.
There used to be one really small group of friends and we were going to be friends forever, well I moved and we were no longer friends anymore. I moved here and met a lot of people, many I thought were friends and we hung out for a long time and as we got older and cliq formed I was never really part of them anymore, because I didn't fit. Well, middle school was much like elementry school, friends we were for years and then when the cycle ended we weren't friends anymore. I started high school trying to be someone, along the way I realized I wasn't anyone and I am not really friends with anyone from there. At the end of my freshman year I became who I am today. I met some more people and we were friends for a while. This cycle contines and I wish it could be like Staind's album where I Break the Cycle, but no cycle is ever broken. It knows that you know that you are in a cycle and you can't do anything about it.
So I am at the end or the begining of yet another cycle, I miss the people that I was with over the years and wonder if the cycles will ever repeat or if familiar faces are able to reoccer. I don't know anymore. I just try to be who I am and work and go to school, continuing towards a degree in which I will be labled a history teacher. I can't prodect the future, except I know that I will always continue, as if I was to quit it would be to lose and in the end if you think about it to eventually die beacause of a failure. Who knew???
I hate to think because it makes me sad and I know that again it is part of some plan that I am not allowed to see. I guess thats why I watch so many movies, to escape a cycle to avoid my life. To know that for 2 hours my life won't be my life, it would be Gimli's or Silent Bob, someone other than Chris, someone other than me.
Peace
Batman