Undescribable Superstition
I'm listening to a song that starts
"Take all of your so called problems
Better put them in quotations
Say what you need to say "
so i'm gonna say what i need to say.... this is really for you amanda and christina because you are those who need to understand...
I'm gonna sound crazy
I truely believe with my whole being and my used to be rational mind that Hunter and I were once one person.
In a past life, or a pre-life, or a spiritual life our souls were just one soul.
I feel like i've been torn and just found the being that's housing my misplaced half...
Sounds stupid but I'm no writter and I can't ever get out exactly how I feel but i'm trying
I try to call you guys and start conversations that will force me to voice how i feel in detail... in a three hour ramble about what i'm trying to describe.
I know that I'm in love with him more than I thought possible in life.
I'm scared... what if I loose him?
He says he's only happy with me...what if i'm actually bad for him?
what if the kind of dependance we share isn't good.
I know he's my other half... I know I want to be with him forever. I know I want him to be my husband and the father of my kids.....
I need him.
He needs me.
We need eachother so much I don't know what to do. We are too yound to expericence the hell we've already been through together.
I realize all these random sentences don't make any sense.
This is just how my brain works.
What if I'm ruining his life?
"Take all of your so called problems
Better put them in quotations
Say what you need to say "
so i'm gonna say what i need to say.... this is really for you amanda and christina because you are those who need to understand...
I'm gonna sound crazy
I truely believe with my whole being and my used to be rational mind that Hunter and I were once one person.
In a past life, or a pre-life, or a spiritual life our souls were just one soul.
I feel like i've been torn and just found the being that's housing my misplaced half...
Sounds stupid but I'm no writter and I can't ever get out exactly how I feel but i'm trying
I try to call you guys and start conversations that will force me to voice how i feel in detail... in a three hour ramble about what i'm trying to describe.
I know that I'm in love with him more than I thought possible in life.
I'm scared... what if I loose him?
He says he's only happy with me...what if i'm actually bad for him?
what if the kind of dependance we share isn't good.
I know he's my other half... I know I want to be with him forever. I know I want him to be my husband and the father of my kids.....
I need him.
He needs me.
We need eachother so much I don't know what to do. We are too yound to expericence the hell we've already been through together.
I realize all these random sentences don't make any sense.
This is just how my brain works.
What if I'm ruining his life?