Forgiving...

Aug 31, 2006 00:19

As some of you may have heard, I spoke with Brandon the other day. Many people have asked me why I forgave him for what he did. I feel it is necessary to explain what exactly I mean when I say "forgave" or "forgiven". I do NOT condone the actions he took nearly 2 years ago. I am still and forever shall be angry about all of that. I do regret that the words I used with him a few months prior were not constructed more effectively but as well all know, I feel regret is something we all have and is something we can learn from. When I say "forgive","forgave" or "forgiven" in regards to Brandon, I simply mean I do not seek redress. I do not seek for him to make right of what was wrong. At this point, it would make little to no sense because I am very happy being with Lizzie and I do not desire Brandon to be my friend at all. I do not seek some kind of balance between us which would result in us being friends again. I have absolutely no desire to be friends with him.

I am not a mean person, I simply do not want to be his friend ever again. I am civil as I can be with him and will continue to be so when he chooses to speak to me. I however will never make a pro-active action to communicate with him or Megan for that matter. In regards to my academic writings, I shall not forbade him or anyone from reading what I have written. As an academic, it is important to share information and ideas on an academic level. I need not be a persons friend or even like a person to appreciate a good piece of writing or to share my work. This is something I learned in many of my philosophy classes.

Brandon and Megan from what I understand are quiet happy with each other and will remain together for the foreseeable future. If there were to break up and not see each other, this does not mean I will change my position in regards to them. I wish them both well in life. I don't want to be in either of their lives ever again.

I am very happy with Lizzie and I am happy with the friends I have now. I will of course have more friends in the future but I shall not be adding Brandon or Megan to that list ever. I am happier without them in my life than I was when they were in my life. I hope this clears things up for everyone.
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