dont stop, dont stop
i had a kickass weekend. got to get away from things here.
came home this morning.
reasons to never come back, ever:
1) mark wont let my boyfriend come over for beyond stupid reasons.
2) i haven't seen my boyfriend in 5 days. now that i'm home, i could only spend 3 hours with him tonight. not. a. happy. camper.
3)my grandfather died this weekend.
4)my mom is taking it really hard.
5)i'm going to Thailand in January for the funeral.
6)it's ASS. FREEZING.
7)things are so ridiculously dramatic and complicated and stockton is ugly.
this whole john - mark conflict is about to send me though the mother fucking roof. the fact that mark is making this all really difficult is pisisng me off. and it reached it's peak today. it's to the point where i will hardly be able to see john that much and tonight when we were hanging out we got into a conversation where he was basically like "maybe we should think about putting this on pause for a bit..."
not for his sake but for my sake because he see's that this is taxing on me. and that makes me want to cry. those words made my heart sick and i just want to crawl into a ball and wake up when i'm forgotten and i can just get up and go. re-instate myself into life.
:-(
came home this morning.
reasons to never come back, ever:
1) mark wont let my boyfriend come over for beyond stupid reasons.
2) i haven't seen my boyfriend in 5 days. now that i'm home, i could only spend 3 hours with him tonight. not. a. happy. camper.
3)my grandfather died this weekend.
4)my mom is taking it really hard.
5)i'm going to Thailand in January for the funeral.
6)it's ASS. FREEZING.
7)things are so ridiculously dramatic and complicated and stockton is ugly.
this whole john - mark conflict is about to send me though the mother fucking roof. the fact that mark is making this all really difficult is pisisng me off. and it reached it's peak today. it's to the point where i will hardly be able to see john that much and tonight when we were hanging out we got into a conversation where he was basically like "maybe we should think about putting this on pause for a bit..."
not for his sake but for my sake because he see's that this is taxing on me. and that makes me want to cry. those words made my heart sick and i just want to crawl into a ball and wake up when i'm forgotten and i can just get up and go. re-instate myself into life.
:-(