So I go, and I will not be back here again
you want what you dont/cant have
always talked about, but still a pain in the ass and true to some degree. usually talked about in reguard to major things, but i'm thinking material things. how ugly of me.
i hate that i'm so fickle. i'm always go back and forth on any decision i make. AND i love how i'll ask other people about what i should do, when they wouldn't have the slightest idea of what I should do... crazy, huh? :-P
it's fucking cold in SF.
going to sparky's parent's house on sat. was awesome. i love his parents. (that's not weird)
i wish it were Janurary and i were leaving for Humboldt tomorrow!
the hardest thing is getting over your bestfriend. someone who's been there through so much.. this past month has felt like a year. i miss her, a lot. i feel like i lost more than a bestfriend.
oh wait- cause i did. it's hard to exactly describe.. but it's like she was my other half. like a sister.
it's werid to be writing actual things in here. i've been writing in my paper journal a lot lately.
i think the common mood for this past month has been : lonely.
feeling utterly alone when there are a million people around you.
hokay, time to go.
always talked about, but still a pain in the ass and true to some degree. usually talked about in reguard to major things, but i'm thinking material things. how ugly of me.
i hate that i'm so fickle. i'm always go back and forth on any decision i make. AND i love how i'll ask other people about what i should do, when they wouldn't have the slightest idea of what I should do... crazy, huh? :-P
it's fucking cold in SF.
going to sparky's parent's house on sat. was awesome. i love his parents. (that's not weird)
i wish it were Janurary and i were leaving for Humboldt tomorrow!
the hardest thing is getting over your bestfriend. someone who's been there through so much.. this past month has felt like a year. i miss her, a lot. i feel like i lost more than a bestfriend.
oh wait- cause i did. it's hard to exactly describe.. but it's like she was my other half. like a sister.
it's werid to be writing actual things in here. i've been writing in my paper journal a lot lately.
i think the common mood for this past month has been : lonely.
feeling utterly alone when there are a million people around you.
hokay, time to go.