New Years Resolutions [kinda nsfw?]
Another year another livejournal entry OMG I'M GOING TO CHANGE MY LIFE!! Right?
Except this year, I really am. :D
I want to change my habits and my attitudes toward my life.
This year there have been times where I have completely focused on myself, and there have been other times [during the end mainly] where I have focused on other people too much, and not disappointing them, not hurting them, etc.
I was happier when I was a little more selfish!
I also have let my work burn me into the ground. I can't keep this up. It's making me bitter and I really don't need the money, I just want it so I can buy foolish material items that I'll wear once or twice.
So! Resolutions!
1. Put self first
This means I'll be spending more time reading, going on adventures [alone :D], not worrying, working out, and indulging myself in the places where I want to be indulged.
So, I am going to not work as much, and I am only going to work the hours I want to work. Fuck money. I'm young and I don't want to be captivated by retail. Working for me is a sick drug. I will work 3 days a week-MAX. I am not going to work during the week.
I am going to take belly-dancing classes! I have wanted to do this forever!! I have just been too afraid to take them alone, see I'm always waiting for someone else to do something for me or with me out of fear, and that's some damn bullshit and enough of that. I need to be alone and do things alone and be okay with myself alone and in every situation.
I'd like to read a book or two a month. I got books for christmas :D
I'm also going to try to distance myself from my ex. He is stuck in the mud. He complains a lot yet acts like a child. I've made this break really messy by sleeping with him a few too many times [*cough cough*] but I'm really done.
I am also irritated with myself as to how I handled that situation, but I'm past it now. If he refuses to grow I can hardly make him. The only thing I can do is not continue to stick around. Which means I might be a little lonely for a while, but that's cool, I need to be alone and learn how to deal with people and myself without a fallback.
I feel like last year was one great huge learning experience with a lot of firsts and mistakes and foolery! But dammit it was fun.
It's sort of weird knowing that I won't be having sex for like, a year. Fuck.
Lol TMI.
Anyway.
Workout, read, be selfish, be adventurous, take risks. Cut down on work hours.
Those are the areas I would like to work on. And possibly spending less time on the internet. It kills me. I think I'm going to start keeping track how much time I spend online. <~~ addicted. I has problem.
Fuck my bills are big this month. lajknskjndf!
happy new year happy holidays praise jesus ♥
Except this year, I really am. :D
I want to change my habits and my attitudes toward my life.
This year there have been times where I have completely focused on myself, and there have been other times [during the end mainly] where I have focused on other people too much, and not disappointing them, not hurting them, etc.
I was happier when I was a little more selfish!
I also have let my work burn me into the ground. I can't keep this up. It's making me bitter and I really don't need the money, I just want it so I can buy foolish material items that I'll wear once or twice.
So! Resolutions!
1. Put self first
This means I'll be spending more time reading, going on adventures [alone :D], not worrying, working out, and indulging myself in the places where I want to be indulged.
So, I am going to not work as much, and I am only going to work the hours I want to work. Fuck money. I'm young and I don't want to be captivated by retail. Working for me is a sick drug. I will work 3 days a week-MAX. I am not going to work during the week.
I am going to take belly-dancing classes! I have wanted to do this forever!! I have just been too afraid to take them alone, see I'm always waiting for someone else to do something for me or with me out of fear, and that's some damn bullshit and enough of that. I need to be alone and do things alone and be okay with myself alone and in every situation.
I'd like to read a book or two a month. I got books for christmas :D
I'm also going to try to distance myself from my ex. He is stuck in the mud. He complains a lot yet acts like a child. I've made this break really messy by sleeping with him a few too many times [*cough cough*] but I'm really done.
I am also irritated with myself as to how I handled that situation, but I'm past it now. If he refuses to grow I can hardly make him. The only thing I can do is not continue to stick around. Which means I might be a little lonely for a while, but that's cool, I need to be alone and learn how to deal with people and myself without a fallback.
I feel like last year was one great huge learning experience with a lot of firsts and mistakes and foolery! But dammit it was fun.
It's sort of weird knowing that I won't be having sex for like, a year. Fuck.
Lol TMI.
Anyway.
Workout, read, be selfish, be adventurous, take risks. Cut down on work hours.
Those are the areas I would like to work on. And possibly spending less time on the internet. It kills me. I think I'm going to start keeping track how much time I spend online. <~~ addicted. I has problem.
Fuck my bills are big this month. lajknskjndf!
happy new year happy holidays praise jesus ♥