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it always shakes me up when someone i'd thought was very nice says something mean about me behind my back. i end up feeling sort of betrayed and disappointed, and i never know what to do about it. if i talk to the person about it, like i did today, i remember how bad i am at being mean to people. i was very matter-of-fact about it, like, hey, you shouldn't write mean things about people where they can read it. that wasn't nice. and she just sort of looked past me and muttered sorry, and we both walked away. and then i have to go through remembering that i don't deserve anything like that, and that what was said actually wasn't true, and that i just need to let it go. that and remember not to smile at this person in the future.