shed some light on me...
time is getting shorter...the days themselves seem to not exist...i will miss everyone that loved me...i can't get my hopes up on anything all i know is i'm doing the right thing...i'm leaving for the right reasons...but i don't know if its going to work out...i don't know if anything will work...i hope that i'm not misled...i hope...i laid two offers on the table...i don't know if they are going to be given a second glance...i don't know anything...all i know is my heart can't handle anymore pain..and yet the pain only gets worse as the day draws closer...what is wrong with me...am i getting cold feet...all day long i have been trying to piece together puzzel pieces that won't fit...i have been rationalizing wondering if everything i'm doing is right...i dunno anymore...i need help...i need guidance...i want this...i need this...but the sacrifice is becoming too much...i'm worried...i'm questioning it all and i don't know why...please...shed some light on me...i need to talk...hash things out...i need...i need reassurance...breathe deep...so your heart beats slow...for in time you'll know where to go...what the hell does that mean...and why the hell has it been running thru my head...this is all happening so fast and hitting me like a freight train to hell...fuck it...i got ferrets to bathe and a cage to clean....i hope i can see thru the tears long enough to do it...i know...i know deep down they aren't comming....so why then do i keep hoping...hoping and praying that they will...you are so stupid...give up the ghost...you already know whats gonna happen...so just let it go...