if thats the blood of stupid people can i have a sip?
hey it happened...i lost my job...my boss called me this morning and fired me over the phone. figured i would let you know. i'm thru watching my life fall apart. this is the last straw...i'm going to give it two more weeks to recover and then if i can't find another job...i'm gone. i want you to know that it might have been easy to blame wayne and be pissed off at him...but i'm not. for some reason the fates have decided or God has i dunno...that my life is meant to fail...i can only hope that going back to new orleans where my life somewhat worked out before all the drama...will be better. i dunno...but i've had enough. my boss told me that they made the decision as soon as she found out i was in a wheel chair. there was nothing i can do...on the plus side of this she says if i get better and there's a position open then she might (key word being might) let me work there again. not as the same position or anything. i dunno if i could go back...i will cuz i need the money..but humiliation was never my strong point. i even whent so low as to beg for my job. i dunno any more. i'll go now and leave you alone...just figured that i would update everyone on my fucked up useless life. no i'm not suicidal...i just don't want to play anymore. i just want things to work...without having to struggle for them so hard that my health gives way. even then i try my damndest to get back up and work for it. is this all for me. is this what i'm meant to be for the rest of my life. see what i mean when i say i work so hard just to watch it all get taken away. i only get so far before i fail every time. i really don't wanna play anymore. i'm done...i'm thru....i'm not writing this for people to feel sorry for me.i don't want pity...i just want for once my life to work out like everyone elses....and everyone wondered why they called me a goth. i need whiskey...good ol whiskey. thats one thing that hasn't failed me...yet...fuck this.