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one week ago today... u couldnt have said or done anything to make me happier...
now today ive done a complete 180 i havent felt like this in three years ...
3 years ago was about the time i was starting to feed tage stage 1 baby food..and i got the cops and childrens and families called on me and i didnt see him for almost 3 months... and i wanted to die it seams like everything i did was wrong
as u know i have decided to give up my car...(in the understanding from other repo-ees that they would send the left over money to a collection agency and it wold be more that fine to send 100 50 or 150 a month as long as i sent something) WRONG its more like if i dont keep the car they are taking me to court and having my balance sucked right out of my fucking check like 50-150$ a week so lets look at this if i keep the car thats about 700$ a month between ins and the car payment or like 600 a month if i dont the only reason i wanted to get rid of it was to have a few extra bucks cause me and leena are moving out in jan.... damn it damn it damn it ...
i fucking hate myself
i want to die
not ajoke
i honistly wish to die tonight,,,
if it wasnt for the fact that i have a family (tage and leena) i would have done so.
somone please save me...
i can not save u
i cant even save my self
now today ive done a complete 180 i havent felt like this in three years ...
3 years ago was about the time i was starting to feed tage stage 1 baby food..and i got the cops and childrens and families called on me and i didnt see him for almost 3 months... and i wanted to die it seams like everything i did was wrong
as u know i have decided to give up my car...(in the understanding from other repo-ees that they would send the left over money to a collection agency and it wold be more that fine to send 100 50 or 150 a month as long as i sent something) WRONG its more like if i dont keep the car they are taking me to court and having my balance sucked right out of my fucking check like 50-150$ a week so lets look at this if i keep the car thats about 700$ a month between ins and the car payment or like 600 a month if i dont the only reason i wanted to get rid of it was to have a few extra bucks cause me and leena are moving out in jan.... damn it damn it damn it ...
i fucking hate myself
i want to die
not ajoke
i honistly wish to die tonight,,,
if it wasnt for the fact that i have a family (tage and leena) i would have done so.
somone please save me...
i can not save u
i cant even save my self