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Feh. Just realized I am another year older. Feels like last year. People are still stupid. I hate this school. Tennis is boring. What the fuck else did I expect?
I hate being in class. I hate practice. Why the fuck am I bothering? Tch.
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I forgot my own birthday this year? It was four days ago. I don't feel different, like usual. He didn't know it was my birthday, of course. Like it would have mattered one way or another.
I feel generally confused. What the hell do I want from him? What do I expect from him? Not a damn thing. So, what the hell is the point of any of it? None. Che. This is lame. Maybe I should have not said a damn thing to him.
I feel... very tired right now. Up far too late. Don't really care, though. I think I'll smoke a cigarette on the roof before crashing. Why do I keep thinking of him? I hate this. It pisses me off.
Suppose I just set my own goddamn self up for this shit, but... fuck it.
...I think I'm going to go into the city tomorrow after practice. Just for the night. I'll be back for classes like I'm supposed to so I don't get kicked out.
I hate being in class. I hate practice. Why the fuck am I bothering? Tch.
Private
I forgot my own birthday this year? It was four days ago. I don't feel different, like usual. He didn't know it was my birthday, of course. Like it would have mattered one way or another.
I feel generally confused. What the hell do I want from him? What do I expect from him? Not a damn thing. So, what the hell is the point of any of it? None. Che. This is lame. Maybe I should have not said a damn thing to him.
I feel... very tired right now. Up far too late. Don't really care, though. I think I'll smoke a cigarette on the roof before crashing. Why do I keep thinking of him? I hate this. It pisses me off.
Suppose I just set my own goddamn self up for this shit, but... fuck it.
...I think I'm going to go into the city tomorrow after practice. Just for the night. I'll be back for classes like I'm supposed to so I don't get kicked out.