isolation..
that isn't that bad of a word now is it ? i've begun my exile and it shall last at least a few months 'til the weather turns fair and i can spend time outdoors again looking to nature to nuture and as long as i can go on without the need for someone else to be part of my dark drama the better i am sure after the fiasco with Mary that i will have no desire to meet anyone or allow anyone into my life for quite some time to come i'm sure alissa would love to hear how badly i was hurt and how it all ended as she had probally predicted it would ,well my sisters were right though of course i wish they hadn't been i did get hurt and it was my own damn fault it was all my own damn fault ...been here at he HFCC for about 4 hours a couple more and i've got to got to my crappy job at least something in my life is easy ...