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I feel like I'm stretched so thin. I really like my job and really like the $$$ I'm making from it. It's just that working around 20 hours a week + being a full time Art student sucks balls. (While a regular 3 credit class is 2.5 hours a week, a 3 credit art class is 5 hrs a week.) I have gotten to the point where I just go to class and go to work. Whenever I get free time I'm either hanging out with people at like late night or I'm way to beat to even think about homework.
I had another freak out last Thursday and ran out of the first class and didn't bother to go to the other two. Partially cause I tend to freak out like that and partially because I'm so tired that I really don't give a shit about school anymore.
And thanks to talking to Jill a week ago about my problems, I've learned to pin point what sets me off when I go on my rampages and to not just throw my hands in the air and claim, "I don't know". It's somewhat of a step forward. Now I need to get to a psychologist because I feel that there's more to this. I keep pushing it off even though I do want help so badly.
So. Tired. I don't get how people do it.
I had another freak out last Thursday and ran out of the first class and didn't bother to go to the other two. Partially cause I tend to freak out like that and partially because I'm so tired that I really don't give a shit about school anymore.
And thanks to talking to Jill a week ago about my problems, I've learned to pin point what sets me off when I go on my rampages and to not just throw my hands in the air and claim, "I don't know". It's somewhat of a step forward. Now I need to get to a psychologist because I feel that there's more to this. I keep pushing it off even though I do want help so badly.
So. Tired. I don't get how people do it.