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it's been a while and so far nutting has changed....just so much bullshit wraped into one thing.....someone you have always taken in no matter what, taken back no matter how bad of a fuck up or mistake, will never do the same......sometimes breaks r good and at times there purely wrong......i guess you cant always get what you deserve-want, it's all bullshit, if it's pity you think i want , then your an idiot...all i have given is 1000% in everything i do for that special someone, whatever the cause is im there no matter what,When the worst happens or something both our faults, you cant just ignore that person,i've done what i can. but you push back like a kid mad cuz they didnt get their candy or whatever they wanted even though it was all there, i dont understand how one can give their whole life and devote everything to them and have to deal with this...i just dont know why...you just dont care or understand the hurt it all cause's, it aint a weakness or anything like that...when your first love and only love tells you to go away, go and leave me alone.....nothing more can hurt than somethin like that, and when you have experianced it and seen what it can do to a simple person you dont care....there's many ways but you wont ever comprimise...your always correct and its your way, never mine.....it just all bullshit and what is one to do? Wait?-stay hurt?-wait to be rejected? someone hopefully can help cuz the one person who suppose to be there for me cant be there because they want to have fun, My life is a total drought now.....for the first time i cant hang, i just cant hang anymore, everyday that you go apart from my life,is hell and it builds up in my mind like some fucking plague or disease and that doesnt quit bugging...you make call it weak but i've never dealt with shit like this, i've man up to shit i fucked up on, i've done my part....you say it's one thing and not the other, you say dont worry, but your planning to go out till 5 in da moringing this weekend etc.., but i've expalined our problem but it seems you just dont care , i guess i cant change your decision or make you love me..:'(...i've done nutting to deserve everything im getting but you see it right, i just want my happy life back that i've been waiting for so long!!...so patiently...i guess it ends....here later wack ass lj-gio