loss
you know, you truely dont know what's there or what could of been and what you loose till you loose it, it sad most thing's are irraplacable and cannot be nor ever concieved in any matter, which i know know wha i've lost and not have but did not take serious nor in any way humain, maybe this is a guilt trip? maybe an confession to late? maybe a burning latern in my furious thoughs ingulfed in flame's by hate and dismare and nothing rightious? i cant say niether, nor that i cant say nothing, it just all come's down to what i want to be or feel like, it's sad i know this but never do anything, nore much to change it and either seek for help. maybe this could all be wrong, but that's the beautie of it, life, in itself is a confuse puzzle and i now have found the last pieace to my unexisting happiness and now it's time to do it, but how?, how is one to do such matter of change is such short period of time?i dont know, maybe one can help, maybe im asking but not being straight with the honest truth of things, on rule, we not lie, it's tuff to ever gain anything back once you lie, but will they or any of us learn? no! i beg and cry and go threw in complete sorrow for nothing i've done but done by other's but also dont comit to the rule! not lieing! not lieing!!!!!!!god will it ever stop? or will it continue to consume me in pain and bullshit sorrow???yes because i canot find that pieace that completly fill in the puzzle that drive's the hate and dislike in everything in me. all i ask is HELP help.