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so my family left about 45 min ago to go to our big family reunion down in tennessee. i'm thinking i maybe should have gone. my bags are sitting on the couch, i'm all packed and ready to go. in general, i could give a fuck about my family, but there are a few cousins that i haven't seen since the last time i went which was about 2 years ago. Even if i had gone, there's no guarantee that they would have been there. also, i know it would have been stressful as hell cause my grandpa went and he flips out over the littlest thing. I'm also wondering if the reasons i stayed home are even good reasons. every time i end up having family shit like one of my friends has some big party that everyone goes to and it's a fuckin blast and i miss it. I missed drunk fest last year cause i had to go meet my sisters fiance, i didn't go to our family reunion last year cause eric was supposed to have a big party, and i didn't go this year cause i told maritza i would go to her graduation party. i'm actually hoping that that's not gonna be a whole big ass bunch of people cause she lives in an apartment and i'm sure it'll be like 10 minutes before the cops show up. on the other hand, i'm kind of glad i didn't go, i really hate putting up with all the "did that hurt" (in reference to my lip) "why's your hair that color, how'd you do that" bullshit cause i know there would be plenty of that. then there's the fact that it's in tennessee, that's a good 10 hour drive with my mom, my grandparents, my sister, and my shit head brat little cousin, bad. idk, they need to just figure out teleportation.