I love her...and she loves me.
I love her...and she loves me. Things should be sooo perfect. Almost 11 months now, we have never had a real fight. Stupid little arguments here and there but never a real fight. Lately the arguments have been getting more and more often. Then there was today. Today sucked!!! I was stressed out beyond belief and Michelle wasn't much better. I snapped at her for going on and on about drama with her friends (probably my first mistake), then she promptly signed off and I was offended because she could have at least said goodbye. I sent her a nasty email saying:
Michelle,
I don't know what is the matter with us. It seems to me that all we do is argue lately. Argue about stupid things. I am tired of it! For example: Earlier today, I was just stating a fact that everytime you say the drama is over it always comes back, then you just go away. And when I tried calling you, you were down right rude! I am trying as hard as I can, to try to get along with you, but it doesn't seem to be working. WE NEED TO TALK!!! Things are getting to the point where I don't wanna call you because I don't wanna argue with you.
Call me!
~Skyler~
That was probably my second mistake. I feel bad that I wasn't very nice. She responded by saying:
I'm sorry. I really am. I try hard not to be rude. Everytime this happens when it gets to the point where we need to talk is always around the time before I get my period. I know its always my fault because I get upset at something you say and you try to fix but I'm too stupidly stubborn. I'm sorry you put up with this. Earlier I'm sorry for being rude and for lying about why I didn't say bye. I got upset at your statement because I thought it would make you happy hearing that I was done with the drama and I was proud that I didn't get upset today over any drama. That's why I got upset. It was proudly stupid to get upset I guess, but it's so hard not to with these stupid hormones. It's so hard Skyler and I don't want to upset anyone especially you. I don't know how to make it go away. I don't know how to fix anything. I am scared of actually having a real argument with you over something that I really am upset about. I think thats why we argue over stupid things. I'm afraid that if I tell you why i'm upset you'll tell me I'm being a stupid drama queen or you just won't want to talk to me or you'll just snap at me and tell me I'm wrong and we'll argue. I don't know why it's so hard for me to express that to you. I'm sorry I make you feel like crap whenever you call me. I really am.
I love her soooo much it is hard to imagine life without her. Not like an obsessed love but a Without you tomorrow wouldn’t be worth the wait and yesterday wouldn’t be worth remembering kinda love. We will work things out I have faith in us. Much love to all of you who took the time to read this.