no more hope for me, i've failed already
so after i met with Ms. R and my mother about my "negative compulsive behavior", i have to get some outside counseling. Everything was great for about a week, i hadn't got counseling yet but i was going to. Today mom didnt go to work, and keith got her drunk instead.I can't believe he brought alcohal to MY HOUSE!! but after all this, i cut. but i can't totally blame my mother and kieth, i also didn't make my audition for honars orchestra and i haven't been honest with mysef about what kind of things i can handle. but adrian left me alone with 2 drunks and once again family roles were replaced. I had to play mother and take care of her. after i was weak from bleeding so much..she got blood all over her from me....and din't even notice..